Btw I'm not trying to dogpile a disorder especially when i think I also have it- but if you recognize you have it like they identified having, you have to take into account negative thoughts about people might not be structured in a reality based lens and might be your trauma speaking :( oh well...

welcome to the gang @asukarfreak.bsky.social!!

:(( I guess not yeah, but i thoughts so... baaah

I'm going to keep trying and looking for better <3 thank you! It is scary and hard to keep fighting past the self doubt and external judgements and failings but i have so much love to give I just can't give up on trying to make friends who care about me as much as I grow to care for them!

<3 Thank you for the supporting words, I struggle a lot with feeling like i let people down when friendships end,I was really trying my best and i wanted the best for them i just was confused why i felt othered recently and they deflected and got self-centered and ignored my end of the suffering :(

but they didnt consider to do the same for me** auggh sadbrain forgetting words

I just feel like it was a huge wall of ironic hypocracy talking down to me about how i should behave and i should treat someone else because i have to consider their feelings and their traumas but like... I do.. i was crying torn up how i might make them feel, but they consider do the same for me...

The problem was that apparently me having a breakdown muted in a call cuddling a plush while crying and chewing on a pacifier is apparently me ignoring someone for 12 hours which is "unacceptable" after I literally told them I was having an anxious breakdown and couldn't respond at the time :((

Thank you for responding and being there for me 😭