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that conclude this rare vent ted talk. anyway, balls

but yeah, i really want them to atleast realized and self-aware. that's all that i wanna wish for them, nothing more. but other than that, i still don't think continuing school or finding a job would sufficiently sustain my well-being long-term. again, i've been burnt out for a while and i need rest

note that i would never have a plan to do this, but i'll say it here

if it takes a harm or a loss for them to realize what's going on, i think it'll be a disappointing reality. i really do care my family, but what i've experienced with honestly makes me sad to realize how one-sided it is sometimes

it's at this point where i really want to quit school, and why i don't wanna look for a job for the sake of my sanity. i couldn't function well at school without crashing myself every milliseconds or so, or without my mom pushes my academic more and more to dry. my mental capacity already on limit

my parents aren't that supporting as well, but mostly my mom because she would push me so much about my academic without giving me a proper break and didn't align what i really wanna do in the future. it's not helping at all that this family is slowly degrading themselve but i won't give much detail

so, i've done my exams partially without studying. mostly because i've been burnt out for a while, and i barely even have enough time to rest. there are bunch of schoolworks that i don't feel like bother continuing it even to this day, because i don't think it's worth to sacrifice my sanity for it

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as much as for myself now having terrible academic level, even then i don't see using ai would help me learn much, because most likely i would copy and paste the result. so yeah, as long as i know the basic baseline of the subject, if it clicks, atleast i still get the basic point of them

knowing how complex and flawed indonesian school system is and how some people are actually falling behind a lot of stuff, i feel like the use of ai in this case would become the point of overdependency

i think it's best to use them once you already learn a lot about subjects. ofc, no gen ai

oh and speeaking of, yeah weeks ago i had to submit it via platfkrm as well and share it to the work sheet

i ended up doing it via yt unlisted. ofc i won't publish it, because why in the first place 🤨

sometimes i kinda think that it's one of those "how you do fellow kids" move, correct me if i'm wrong

diabolical irony

yep

i somewhat compared this case to minecraft community when they hate that the update drop has less features or too much features

it's at this point where they should take a dip on game development. you pretty much can't expect too much for first day launch to be perfect 🤷‍♂️