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Mr. Grim
@imukuni.bsky.social
Dad to a fantastic little boy
Married to a caring physician
Leader of The Currently Undecided
Liberal Christian (empathy is not a sin)
MA Rhetoric & Tech Comm
Pro-bono Grant Writer for fun

DM me if you need help.
I’m coming to terms with two things.

1. That high functioning people have the curse that others will think that they’re capable all of the time even when they’re in crisis.

2. That I am high functioning even when in a crisis.

Thank you for listening.
April 18, 2025 at 4:45 PM
Being a rock nearly killed me.

Everyone kept coming to me in a panic about this other person. That other person was the reason I almost died.
April 18, 2025 at 4:45 PM
For 30 days, I experienced daily and routine trauma as people tried to scam me, one person tried to kill me, and I almost died to sleep deprivation.

I WORKED 40 hours solid, slept for 5 hours, and WORKED 40 hours. I woke up and was on the phone the whole time.
April 18, 2025 at 4:45 PM
I’m still alone and it sucks.

Sure, I’ve been able to navigate all of my relationships just fine and everybody feels good about themselves. I’ve made sure that they’ve walked away with hope because that’s what they need right now.

They don’t get what I just been through.
April 18, 2025 at 4:45 PM
How the heck can I take care of myself, if I’m saying, “ I can’t take care of myself and I need help. Can you do this?”.

That’s just telling me “no” in a nice way.
April 18, 2025 at 4:45 PM
I’ve been in constant contact with all of these people, but they keep repeating the same words to me:

“Take care of yourself”.

If I could have, I would have. That’s what most of us are saying right now about all of what’s going on.
April 18, 2025 at 4:45 PM
I mean. I worked 40 hours straight. Slept for 5 and then worked 40 hours. I took Monday off, but dang am I feeling it.
April 1, 2025 at 8:32 PM
I know I’ll be fine. I just kind of wish that somebody would sit in the pain with me.

Right now, that’s asking too much.
April 1, 2025 at 6:32 PM
No one during this entire time has asked me if I was OK. They just kept telling me to go take care of myself.

My fibromyalgia is literally all over my body every square inch. Most days I experience what others would call a six or seven. That’s a one for me.
April 1, 2025 at 6:32 PM
I know from standstill point. We’re fine. I’ve been in such a state of complex PTSD my whole life that this is my living state. It’s just getting to be a bit much now that the people are getting into the dozens.

Teaching myself to sit in others pain with them is a double edge sword.
April 1, 2025 at 6:32 PM
They would sense that I was listening and all would just explode with information.

I listened like a good project manager I used to be. I took a count of facts, made risk assessment, accounted for personnel, and delegated tasks.

In my head^
April 1, 2025 at 6:32 PM
This is why I have a persona. I’m constantly terrified that there’s gonna be somebody that’s gonna come for me again and again and again.

And in the last few weeks, it has been the opposite. I’ve had to hold up so many people.
April 1, 2025 at 6:32 PM
Push push push push. All these people telling me to “take care of myself“ in response to “I need help”.

I’m in a social triage state and I’m getting constantly PTSD every day because I have to talk about my own life. There’s very few forms that I haven’t experienced firsthand.
April 1, 2025 at 6:32 PM
I asked everyone for help for me. It’s Tuesday and there’s still no one here.

I’m expected to clean my house, do the laundry, raise my son, protect him, make dinner, check in on all the people that I’ve already promised to help, take care of myself, consider going on a vacation,
April 1, 2025 at 6:32 PM
It’s Tuesday and she’s at work. I am doing the stay at home dad thing today to “recover”.

I can’t stop shaking.

I’m only talking about this now, because this has been most of my life. I have been constantly surrounded by pain.
April 1, 2025 at 6:32 PM
I’m having rapid panic attacks and can’t sleep in the same room as my wife.

I was actively terrified of my life this weekend from a woman that I very much trusted. No, I’m not alluding to my wife. She’s great. But this woman also hurt my wife deeply.
April 1, 2025 at 6:32 PM
With the knowledge that only one of them was going to be ok.

God, this country went to hell in a handbasket. Please fix it.
March 30, 2025 at 6:12 AM
The fear and the terror tactics worked and they continue to throw everybody in the loop because even the most sane people aren’t dealing with their feelings.

The public trust has been eroded over time in memorial.

I had to choose between who I was going to help this week.
March 30, 2025 at 6:12 AM
I’m not bragging. I’m just exhausted.

I’m expecting this to get much worse, but if you haven’t seen that, there are homes now being filled with more people in your neighborhood or people are getting quiet or scared. It’s because they are.

People are starting to break really badly.
March 30, 2025 at 6:12 AM
Sure, I’ve been in business consulting for a week and my client roster is filled, and there’s a waitlist.

I just wasn’t expecting on doing everything from all the above all at once.

I’ve cleaned house I’ve moved furniture that weighs twice as much as me. I have calmed so many people down.
March 30, 2025 at 6:12 AM