That makes perfect sense! It's fine to picture a sort of magnum opus you want to Eventually Reach the ability to create, but I think that also has to come through consistently pushing through what seems to already be "too difficult" for you to do.

You'll get there one day, I'm sure of it.

i love having new fixations

Take this from someone who's taken far too long to write because she nourished these exact same fears.

It always starts with the feeling of "how dare I DESECRATE these beloved characters with my filthy hands" but soon enough, you realize that the hands of any and all creators are soiled with the blood of a thousand, thousand failures.

Try and write. The worst you can do is still art.

oh this is on purpose.

this is making me crazy

"Tighten my corset, Arlecchino" one of those lyrics of all time that never leaves my mind

into the torture labyrinth she goes!!

Whereas MyGO has girls who are lost trying to find a semblance of together-ness, Ave Mujica are girls who have lost themselves within themselves like matroshka dolls, and who need to wear mask upon mask to exist as what they are

(Hatsune as Uika, Mortis as Mutsumi and inversely, Nyamu as a popular socialite instead of a girl from the boonies, Umiri as a fake idgafer in spite of her abandonment issues and Sakiko for Too Many Reasons)

it's such an interesting 'response' to what MyGO is, in a way

I don't know how much it ties into the goth, but I think a lot about how the mask imagery is tied to Commedia dell'arte and classical theater themeing, particularly with Alter Ego. It really is a group of people constantly wearing uncomfortable roles in life

ah yes, taking a page out of the old lovecraft school of naming your feline companions

I've been re-reading main story and it definitely makes me understand the appeal a lot more, the way Mafuyu as OWN separated herself so distinctly from Mafuyu as Yuki or even Mafuyu as Mafuyu, it's fascinating.

nothing i write or say will ever be as gay as Saki Tenma, what's the point