ramona
@hollowtornado.bsky.social
30
she/they
SW: 212 CW: 191.4 GW1: 144
she/they
SW: 212 CW: 191.4 GW1: 144
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ramona
@hollowtornado.bsky.social
· Jan 3
𖦹˚.⋆✮⋆ ─ ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ─ ⋆✮⋆.˚𖦹
☆༉ ramona
☆༉ est. June 1995 (˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ )
☆༉ 5’4”
☆༉ hw 212 ⋆ gw 144 ⋆ ugw 110
☆༉ cw in bio !
☆༉ ednos / audhd
☆༉ pro recovery + harm reduction (just not for me?!)
⟢ -16 or non-edsky dni <3
𖦹˚.⋆✮⋆—⋆✮⋆.˚𖦹
☆༉ ramona
☆༉ est. June 1995 (˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ )
☆༉ 5’4”
☆༉ hw 212 ⋆ gw 144 ⋆ ugw 110
☆༉ cw in bio !
☆༉ ednos / audhd
☆༉ pro recovery + harm reduction (just not for me?!)
⟢ -16 or non-edsky dni <3
𖦹˚.⋆✮⋆—⋆✮⋆.˚𖦹
just put my orange metamucil in popwell cream soda and changed the entire game
February 9, 2026 at 5:32 PM
just put my orange metamucil in popwell cream soda and changed the entire game
if I could fly, I doubt I'd even do it
February 3, 2026 at 9:23 PM
if I could fly, I doubt I'd even do it
will I ever stop trying to solve planet level fear with body level control? 😏
February 3, 2026 at 4:39 AM
will I ever stop trying to solve planet level fear with body level control? 😏
I feel too sensitive for this brutal system.
February 2, 2026 at 8:59 PM
I feel too sensitive for this brutal system.
I don't have goals, I have dissociation fantasies 🤣 It’s not about a body, it's about erasure, control, disappearing safely, being untouchable, proving something, silence in my head, numbness, safety through reduction and WORTH through ABSENCE. fuck, though, can I just lose weight plz
February 2, 2026 at 5:47 PM
I don't have goals, I have dissociation fantasies 🤣 It’s not about a body, it's about erasure, control, disappearing safely, being untouchable, proving something, silence in my head, numbness, safety through reduction and WORTH through ABSENCE. fuck, though, can I just lose weight plz
hobbies feel pointless, the future feels hollow, my identity feels blurry and nothing feels tethered. everything feels either too much or nothing, my nervous system feels like static, my body feels foreign and my mind feels tired and loud at the same time. fuck.
January 31, 2026 at 3:25 AM
hobbies feel pointless, the future feels hollow, my identity feels blurry and nothing feels tethered. everything feels either too much or nothing, my nervous system feels like static, my body feels foreign and my mind feels tired and loud at the same time. fuck.
if I had a band, it'd be named ✨out of pocket bullshit✨
January 29, 2026 at 2:32 PM
if I had a band, it'd be named ✨out of pocket bullshit✨
restriction absolutely deepens depression physiologically.
low intake → low dopamine → low motivation → low drive → low reward → flat affect → anhedonia. the idea of “more energy” feels threatening, not hopeful. ugh.
low intake → low dopamine → low motivation → low drive → low reward → flat affect → anhedonia. the idea of “more energy” feels threatening, not hopeful. ugh.
January 29, 2026 at 2:31 PM
restriction absolutely deepens depression physiologically.
low intake → low dopamine → low motivation → low drive → low reward → flat affect → anhedonia. the idea of “more energy” feels threatening, not hopeful. ugh.
low intake → low dopamine → low motivation → low drive → low reward → flat affect → anhedonia. the idea of “more energy” feels threatening, not hopeful. ugh.
✨existentially exhausted✨
January 29, 2026 at 7:54 AM
✨existentially exhausted✨
istg 1200 feels like such a normal number of calories, like if normal people eat that and I'm eating that, I'm not actually restricting
January 27, 2026 at 11:50 PM
istg 1200 feels like such a normal number of calories, like if normal people eat that and I'm eating that, I'm not actually restricting
I LOVE when my brain is like “Oh no. Danger. Better apologize for being alive.”
January 24, 2026 at 8:36 PM
I LOVE when my brain is like “Oh no. Danger. Better apologize for being alive.”
Reposted by ramona
If I get to my ugw and I’m still miserable idk what I’m gonna do, and thinking about how I probably still will be miserable is making me sick. if losing weight doesn’t make it end what will
January 22, 2026 at 4:45 PM
If I get to my ugw and I’m still miserable idk what I’m gonna do, and thinking about how I probably still will be miserable is making me sick. if losing weight doesn’t make it end what will
since I've been eating more I've hit a new lw for this rel@pse so ... should've started there I guess 🤣
January 24, 2026 at 11:35 AM
since I've been eating more I've hit a new lw for this rel@pse so ... should've started there I guess 🤣
at my lowest (lol emotionally and weight wise) this relapse, and lowest since July 2023... we're so back
January 21, 2026 at 9:00 PM
at my lowest (lol emotionally and weight wise) this relapse, and lowest since July 2023... we're so back
APPARENTLY being small doesn’t make you invisible to predators, it makes you less noticed by strangers. APPARENTLY that’s not the same thing. 😐🙄
January 20, 2026 at 6:02 PM
APPARENTLY being small doesn’t make you invisible to predators, it makes you less noticed by strangers. APPARENTLY that’s not the same thing. 😐🙄
do I want to lose fat at the cost of my life? uhhhh, yeah babes.
January 20, 2026 at 4:58 PM
do I want to lose fat at the cost of my life? uhhhh, yeah babes.
friendly reminder (for me): you can’t out-starve the world’s cruelty, you can’t out-avoid the political climate no matter how hard you try.
January 19, 2026 at 3:42 AM
friendly reminder (for me): you can’t out-starve the world’s cruelty, you can’t out-avoid the political climate no matter how hard you try.
You are not worthless because you can’t starve yourself into invisibility.
January 19, 2026 at 3:25 AM
You are not worthless because you can’t starve yourself into invisibility.
My body is working for me, even while I’m scared of it. I'm scared shitless of it.
January 18, 2026 at 11:31 AM
My body is working for me, even while I’m scared of it. I'm scared shitless of it.
Bones are predictable. They don’t argue. They don’t surprise you. They don’t leave. I miss feeling contained. I miss clarity. I miss the quiet certainty that came from sharp edges.
January 16, 2026 at 4:59 PM
Bones are predictable. They don’t argue. They don’t surprise you. They don’t leave. I miss feeling contained. I miss clarity. I miss the quiet certainty that came from sharp edges.
sometimes therapy looks like journaling.
sometimes it looks like inner child work.
and sometimes it looks like hurling a sad little cardboard bottle across the room because your body needed one clean, consequence‑free act of NOPE. 😜
sometimes it looks like inner child work.
and sometimes it looks like hurling a sad little cardboard bottle across the room because your body needed one clean, consequence‑free act of NOPE. 😜
January 15, 2026 at 3:49 PM
sometimes therapy looks like journaling.
sometimes it looks like inner child work.
and sometimes it looks like hurling a sad little cardboard bottle across the room because your body needed one clean, consequence‑free act of NOPE. 😜
sometimes it looks like inner child work.
and sometimes it looks like hurling a sad little cardboard bottle across the room because your body needed one clean, consequence‑free act of NOPE. 😜
you'll always be a flower on my skin
and the pain that I am in
it's all the same
and the pain that I am in
it's all the same
January 15, 2026 at 3:17 PM
you'll always be a flower on my skin
and the pain that I am in
it's all the same
and the pain that I am in
it's all the same
how tf do you guys have energy to work out
January 14, 2026 at 12:00 AM
how tf do you guys have energy to work out
well, y'all, I'm a ✨metamucil success story✨
January 13, 2026 at 11:13 PM
well, y'all, I'm a ✨metamucil success story✨
my dietician is challenging me to eat 800 consistently every day AND she wants to see me next week instead of in two weeks. fuck 🙃🫡 let's hope the scale still goes down bc I'm gonna r1ot
January 13, 2026 at 7:59 PM
my dietician is challenging me to eat 800 consistently every day AND she wants to see me next week instead of in two weeks. fuck 🙃🫡 let's hope the scale still goes down bc I'm gonna r1ot