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Great not even 8 am and I’m sobbing emotional mess on the couch. Great way to start my day. Two emergency phone call from dad’s nursing home to deal with and being emotionally unable to deal with small negatives criticisms.
Tuesday why you acting like a Monday??
Tuesday why you acting like a Monday??
January 6, 2026 at 1:00 PM
Great not even 8 am and I’m sobbing emotional mess on the couch. Great way to start my day. Two emergency phone call from dad’s nursing home to deal with and being emotionally unable to deal with small negatives criticisms.
Tuesday why you acting like a Monday??
Tuesday why you acting like a Monday??
I’m so tired of just living in a state of numb. But I’m not sure how not to.
December 13, 2025 at 11:56 PM
I’m so tired of just living in a state of numb. But I’m not sure how not to.
I absolutely dread and hate the feeling of days before and my actually birthday.
December 5, 2025 at 11:50 PM
I absolutely dread and hate the feeling of days before and my actually birthday.
I wish I could express how much fatigue is caused my chronic pain and the shame that comes along with it.
I spent a portion of my day in tears from the lack of energy to do the level of things I need to get done.
I spent a portion of my day in tears from the lack of energy to do the level of things I need to get done.
November 10, 2025 at 8:44 PM
I wish I could express how much fatigue is caused my chronic pain and the shame that comes along with it.
I spent a portion of my day in tears from the lack of energy to do the level of things I need to get done.
I spent a portion of my day in tears from the lack of energy to do the level of things I need to get done.
Being in chronic pain means you walk around normally in some state of pain. So on your “bad” days would be insufferable to some. But you don’t want to constantly talk about it cause then you feel like you are just a downer to everyone.
October 2, 2025 at 10:02 PM
Being in chronic pain means you walk around normally in some state of pain. So on your “bad” days would be insufferable to some. But you don’t want to constantly talk about it cause then you feel like you are just a downer to everyone.
First day back on my adhd meds in nearly a month jumping through loop holes. The come down after being off it for some long is a bit rough.
May 6, 2025 at 11:31 PM
First day back on my adhd meds in nearly a month jumping through loop holes. The come down after being off it for some long is a bit rough.
Work up from a nap in tears. I need my body and life back.
April 30, 2025 at 5:27 PM
Work up from a nap in tears. I need my body and life back.
My brain is getting really bad. Every time things get quiet or I’m not focusing on something I’m hit by waves of depression and am holding back tears. So my brain is trying to fill that vacuum but I can focus cause so many distractions. Which means I don’t get things done which makes me feel worse.
April 24, 2025 at 10:23 PM
My brain is getting really bad. Every time things get quiet or I’m not focusing on something I’m hit by waves of depression and am holding back tears. So my brain is trying to fill that vacuum but I can focus cause so many distractions. Which means I don’t get things done which makes me feel worse.
Waiting to my uncle to call so we can talk about my dad. Today can just be done already. Oh yeah but then I have a school board meeting tonight.
April 22, 2025 at 5:50 PM
Waiting to my uncle to call so we can talk about my dad. Today can just be done already. Oh yeah but then I have a school board meeting tonight.
Why is it so difficult to re-wire our brains so that we stop acting out of trauma response conditioning….
April 22, 2025 at 12:46 PM
Why is it so difficult to re-wire our brains so that we stop acting out of trauma response conditioning….
I hate my body and I hate my mind, guess I’ll just hold onto my heart and hope that’s enough.
April 21, 2025 at 3:17 AM
I hate my body and I hate my mind, guess I’ll just hold onto my heart and hope that’s enough.
I can’t stop feeling tired of late. I feel like I’m just running from one emergency to the next. Putting out fire after fire. Taking care of all the people around me. I know people know I’m tired and dealing with a lot. But I don’t think they understand the toll this is taking on me.
March 25, 2025 at 5:32 PM
I can’t stop feeling tired of late. I feel like I’m just running from one emergency to the next. Putting out fire after fire. Taking care of all the people around me. I know people know I’m tired and dealing with a lot. But I don’t think they understand the toll this is taking on me.
It is hard to pretend to be okay all the time around people when you feel like just falling apart and crying.
March 9, 2025 at 6:22 PM
It is hard to pretend to be okay all the time around people when you feel like just falling apart and crying.
No matter how many things I get done on my to do list it never feels like enough.
February 20, 2025 at 12:23 AM
No matter how many things I get done on my to do list it never feels like enough.
I need to remember the day after I do political activism is always going to be an emotionally hard day.
January 29, 2025 at 7:28 PM
I need to remember the day after I do political activism is always going to be an emotionally hard day.
I'm supposed to game tonight online, but I'm holding myself together with bubble gum and tape. It takes so much energy to pretend to be okay. I've been doing it all week just to not upset people or make them feel bad. I don't know how much longer I can keep this up right now.
January 25, 2025 at 10:58 PM
I'm supposed to game tonight online, but I'm holding myself together with bubble gum and tape. It takes so much energy to pretend to be okay. I've been doing it all week just to not upset people or make them feel bad. I don't know how much longer I can keep this up right now.
Today has been an utter shit show emotionally. I’m supposed to go out with family for dinner tonight and my body is literally shaking. I’m putting myself in a dark room with a weighted blanket hopping it helps.
January 24, 2025 at 9:28 PM
Today has been an utter shit show emotionally. I’m supposed to go out with family for dinner tonight and my body is literally shaking. I’m putting myself in a dark room with a weighted blanket hopping it helps.
New handles arrived. Liking the colors.
January 19, 2025 at 3:26 AM
New handles arrived. Liking the colors.
Was looking back at some of my commission pieces and thought I would share these two. Tentacle slapper and a flogger based on the flower from “the name of the wind”
January 17, 2025 at 10:16 PM
Was looking back at some of my commission pieces and thought I would share these two. Tentacle slapper and a flogger based on the flower from “the name of the wind”
Nurse doing a cognitive test with my dad today.
Nurse “Do you know what state you are in?”
Dad “a cold one”
Nurse “do you know what day today is?”
Dad “Thursday”
Nurse “good and what was yesterday?”
Dad “Wednesday”
Nurse “Anything special about yesterday?
Dad “Not really”
Sigh
Nurse “Do you know what state you are in?”
Dad “a cold one”
Nurse “do you know what day today is?”
Dad “Thursday”
Nurse “good and what was yesterday?”
Dad “Wednesday”
Nurse “Anything special about yesterday?
Dad “Not really”
Sigh
December 26, 2024 at 7:56 PM
Nurse doing a cognitive test with my dad today.
Nurse “Do you know what state you are in?”
Dad “a cold one”
Nurse “do you know what day today is?”
Dad “Thursday”
Nurse “good and what was yesterday?”
Dad “Wednesday”
Nurse “Anything special about yesterday?
Dad “Not really”
Sigh
Nurse “Do you know what state you are in?”
Dad “a cold one”
Nurse “do you know what day today is?”
Dad “Thursday”
Nurse “good and what was yesterday?”
Dad “Wednesday”
Nurse “Anything special about yesterday?
Dad “Not really”
Sigh
Fuck I hate today.
December 26, 2024 at 4:29 PM
Fuck I hate today.
Are you a DnD nerd? Are you kinky nerd? Are you a computer nerd? Did you know there are new rpg dice that can talk to your hue lights, oh yeah and you can make them talk to blue tooth sex toys…. Roll for pleasure.
December 8, 2024 at 2:32 PM
Are you a DnD nerd? Are you kinky nerd? Are you a computer nerd? Did you know there are new rpg dice that can talk to your hue lights, oh yeah and you can make them talk to blue tooth sex toys…. Roll for pleasure.
Made a fun minimalist wallet for my wife out of the new iridescent leather. Something to take out to theatre etc.
December 4, 2024 at 5:13 PM
Made a fun minimalist wallet for my wife out of the new iridescent leather. Something to take out to theatre etc.
New iridescent color shifting leather hitting the scene. Mermaid flogger.
December 3, 2024 at 6:29 PM
New iridescent color shifting leather hitting the scene. Mermaid flogger.