the world's so fucked and im lost in it while also being dirty, bruised, scabby, stinky, deranged, and empty of all the good things

thought gone again, back to mindless worry

like he is so sexy and not just because he's a 9 foot tall blue alien cat man, but also I am generally horny for evil yanks if they're kinda funny. so I support the franchise to the hilt, idk if there's a deeper meaning in there, keep up the good work Jim Cameron

can't talk my way out overwhelming bodily sensations, unfortunately. giving them a narrative makes them more persistent.

can't look after myself

it feels very 'all this over him falling out with me over a d&d game' but apparently he was a controlling ultimatum-giver to my sister for a while anyway. I know im neither the cause or catalyst, and that he's responsible for his own behaviour and did all this. but i feel blame still

my sister wants me to be more involved and thinks I don't see them enough. its their marriage and custody so nobodies asked me but personally, I don't want to see the kids anyway. they're violent shites like their father. I just want my sister to be ok. but her ex husband really hates me

and its because I dated a younger guy for a few months and joked i dumped him for turning 20 when he moved to change careers, 'im not safe' so the kids can't see me. whatever man. clutch at some straws

no change in situation :(

things are still the same, legal action is being looked into. idk, like i really don't know wtf is going on. its wild

nobody seems to be saying that he's clearly having a mental episode though, but I've never seen someone be so cruel. I don't get how he can walk this back

hes fully off the deep end. its gonna be harder and harder to walk any of this stuff back. what the fuck