unfortunately, jillian
@gajillians.bsky.social
good at being tired. welcome to my diary
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daily affirmations “i am normal and can be trusted to have conversations. i am perceived in a regular way. i am only mildly off-putting”
my soul actively disintegrates each moment that i am not making every single person happy at the same time
February 9, 2026 at 5:40 AM
my soul actively disintegrates each moment that i am not making every single person happy at the same time
footbal yay :)
February 9, 2026 at 5:39 AM
footbal yay :)
im alive btw. nominally at least
February 3, 2026 at 10:25 PM
im alive btw. nominally at least
when i decide to have redbull and hot cheetos limon for breakfast
February 3, 2026 at 7:40 PM
when i decide to have redbull and hot cheetos limon for breakfast
sorry diary time! yeehaw im so sad
January 29, 2026 at 7:54 AM
sorry diary time! yeehaw im so sad
i wish certain events in my life had gone differently. some major and some minor and some absolutely trivial but if you could rewrite things, would you? or should life just be how it is
January 29, 2026 at 7:54 AM
i wish certain events in my life had gone differently. some major and some minor and some absolutely trivial but if you could rewrite things, would you? or should life just be how it is
im not doing that great but im doing ok i guess. maybe i can have a career or life or happiness or friends or a relationship again someday but seems unlikely on all counts
January 29, 2026 at 7:49 AM
im not doing that great but im doing ok i guess. maybe i can have a career or life or happiness or friends or a relationship again someday but seems unlikely on all counts
ohhh forgot about soup!
January 29, 2026 at 7:48 AM
ohhh forgot about soup!
have to stop letting myself be disrespected
January 27, 2026 at 6:45 AM
have to stop letting myself be disrespected
im so sad but it is possible that going to the bar every day is getting me somewhere in the sense of i am networking with people adjacent to jobs i might be able to want so maybe its good?
January 25, 2026 at 8:32 AM
im so sad but it is possible that going to the bar every day is getting me somewhere in the sense of i am networking with people adjacent to jobs i might be able to want so maybe its good?
didn’t even get an interview for the museum job i applied for. what’s even the point, i can’t find a fucking job with either of my degrees and i don’t want to do this anymore
January 24, 2026 at 4:02 PM
didn’t even get an interview for the museum job i applied for. what’s even the point, i can’t find a fucking job with either of my degrees and i don’t want to do this anymore
im so good at not wanting to
January 23, 2026 at 2:24 AM
im so good at not wanting to
i am tired of entertaining people. i wish to be entertained
January 23, 2026 at 2:19 AM
i am tired of entertaining people. i wish to be entertained
having difficulty. was going to elaborate on specifics but that’s really all there is to it
January 23, 2026 at 1:37 AM
having difficulty. was going to elaborate on specifics but that’s really all there is to it
have fooled everyone into thinking that i am not the worst. i hope
January 22, 2026 at 7:03 PM
have fooled everyone into thinking that i am not the worst. i hope
overwhelmed by the amount of nothing i feel capable of these days. think i used to do things in some distant past
January 22, 2026 at 6:46 PM
overwhelmed by the amount of nothing i feel capable of these days. think i used to do things in some distant past
feeling super something but not sure what thing the something might be
January 22, 2026 at 7:31 AM
feeling super something but not sure what thing the something might be
salad kit with accessories my beloved
January 22, 2026 at 6:08 AM
salad kit with accessories my beloved
ever have to pee so bad you get a headache
January 22, 2026 at 5:42 AM
ever have to pee so bad you get a headache
if you always do something is that sometimes kind of the same thing as never doing something else? is everything mutually inclusive or exclusive basically
January 22, 2026 at 5:42 AM
if you always do something is that sometimes kind of the same thing as never doing something else? is everything mutually inclusive or exclusive basically
a shower is kind of like a standing hot tub if you have some imagination and the capacity to dissociate
January 19, 2026 at 10:40 PM
a shower is kind of like a standing hot tub if you have some imagination and the capacity to dissociate
my shit be constantly bonked
January 17, 2026 at 7:48 AM
my shit be constantly bonked
lmao. guess i’m charismatic
January 17, 2026 at 6:55 AM
lmao. guess i’m charismatic
accidentally ate an entire pint of little tomatoes with one crouton each last night between midnight and two in the morning
January 16, 2026 at 11:35 PM
accidentally ate an entire pint of little tomatoes with one crouton each last night between midnight and two in the morning