that’s the journey! You find yourself looking for new goals because good artists are never satisfied…you gotta just keep chugging

no. I think what you and I are feeling, ultimately, is the pressure of getting older. you overcome it eventually and get mature! just keep strong til then

I haven’t been to a Starbucks since 2022! It’s mad easy

I feel weird about it. Kinda proud of myself…but also it feels anticlimactic. My whole world got kinda of upended these last two years, lost lots of friends on here and irl, lost my sense of artistic confidence and have no real future career path. It’s a profoundly odd feeling

hey seriously pls don't

www.youtube.com/watch?v=r1JP...

so yes, I have OCD and Major Depressive Disorder. but rather than feel shameful and delete everything and disappear, I want to re-immerse myself with the people and community that have made me feel comfortable for the first time, and, for the first time, learning to accept myself.

I'm not broken or a monster or anything like that, I am who I am and there are others like me, it's something I can now manage and not a black void surrounding me. I can make art about it and maybe make a few others feel less alone, that would be the dream...

being frank, I don't function like most people, and I've been aware of that for a while. i have a hard time socializing and working, it's a pain, and the diagnosis was less depressing, and more a revelation: I may not have to suffer in silence any longer.

I had a pretty major episode for about two weeks, messaging people incessantly, being unable to sleep and struggling to get through each day. I finally told my doctor about what I was going through, and I had more of a history of OCD tendencies than I had thought.

my Halloween has been quite good. Less active than I want and with a brief blip of some poor mental health but also more relaxed than ever, I can take in the beautiful weather and enjoyed some time with the people I loved and felt that same orange mischievous glow from long ago…