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Omfg someone else knows about this!! Amazing!! I've always been a star fox kid and I love the gritty feel like it's an old VHS.

Thank you Amber it's been a hell of a year. Just trying to get through the end of it. I can't even sleep the pain is so awful.

One of my favorite movies

I just wanted to bitch about my life and how I am feeling, 40 is quickly approaching and I feel like nothing has changed since I was 20.

I'm still a failure, still married somehow, still jobless and fighting my own thoughts.

Idk what this is for, I guess to distract me from crying alone in bed.

I'm fighting every day and I know I am not alone in this. If someone out there is reading this and struggling. Please keep fighting, I know it's hard, and scary but you can make it. We have to make it to the other side.

Now I lay in bed most days begging to not burst into tears and to have a genuine smile that day. I feel like I have nothing left to look forward too and everyone keeps reminding me/telling me about the monsters that are in charge of our government.

So I went back to job searching but ever since then not a day goes by that I don't think about killing myself.

I'm lucky that I had a lot of therapy that taught me how to fight the idealization of it, but it's getting harder and harder as winter brings it's own depression.

I have had zero interviews

Zero callbacks

Zero anything

Then I had an interview and thought I was hired for a job, it wasn't what I wanted but I was willing to grin and bare it to make money for my family.

Turns out it was a pyramid scheme, I had never felt so embarrassed

This has so many little wonderful in jokes all over it. I love the Steve special being a badge. This is truly amazing