nevermind I can't do shit lmao

someone should kill me at this point what the fuck am i doing why the fuck is school even a thing why do i have to get good grades to get my life together if i can't have good grades if my life is in shambles i was supposed to have someone i could look up to but instead i got fucked over emotionally

and i fucking wish i could just travel back in time to not let it happen cuz if i could i would just stay as besties or some shit or at least friends like before and the feeling is even worse when i remember i was so hesitant to let it happen fuck my stupid baka chud life man

i'm so fucking mad at myself that i can't make/sustain new friendships and i have noone to flirt to and the last time someone i knew for a long time tried to flirt with me left me in a hoooooriibleeeee heartbreak

oh im so fuckeddddd

maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan I wish I could send this to you and tell you how cool you are :(((

i should kill myself

still have to learn how to do makeup :v