Great bird angles tbh

Precious bird!

Oooooooooo

Some things in the industry haven’t changed, and yet there are good people who care trying to change it and make sure that music is accessible to all, both audiences and performers.

Tl;dr I wound up at a wonderful well-known countertenor’s house for a party unexpectedly and stayed until 3:30am.

My partner (whom I dragged along) and I stayed talking to him and sipping chartreuse until 3:30 in the morning.

As someone who still has major imposter syndrome and doesn’t feel like I’m a true musician, I felt just as seen as when I met them the first time almost 8 years ago.

I get excited, mention that I’m a musician when asked, and then look at his face.

Mind you, I have no glasses on and it’s dark in the house. I remove my mask and the guy notices me.

This man is a famous world-renowned countertenor local to Boston, and I manage to be at a house party at his house.

Depression is very much real, and I want to say it’ll get easier, but I’m not confident it will. For now, Furpoc is the next big thing on my list, but I’ll most likely be absent from local events still. I’ll be focusing more on music and maybe getting some of my thoughts from paper to recording.

I can’t get out of these feelings of burden and worthlessness that have become so intense that I’ve just come to a complete halt with being social, feeling like I shouldn’t be places because I’d suck the energy out of the room.