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@endoubleu.bsky.social
You probably know me for my bird illustrations and sewing stuff, and maybe dinner, but on this profile I'm just me, for the social side.
There's a business me too, if you know where to look.
🇳🇿Pākehā | She/her/they | cat person
There's a business me too, if you know where to look.
🇳🇿Pākehā | She/her/they | cat person
Chocolate bloom is not bad per se, but it's not the most pleasant in terms of mouthfeel. To have a whole lot of stuff that is like that though, alongside the lettuce that's totally 😬
February 5, 2026 at 2:56 AM
Chocolate bloom is not bad per se, but it's not the most pleasant in terms of mouthfeel. To have a whole lot of stuff that is like that though, alongside the lettuce that's totally 😬
Transcendental meditation/yogic flying on that list?
February 4, 2026 at 7:14 AM
Transcendental meditation/yogic flying on that list?
While it's no longer a thing for me, I just want to see an office architect that takes into account space for a sanitary disposal unit in toilet cubicles. Just enough that you're not banging your knees against it while you're dealing with the reason for it being there in the first place. Because eww
February 4, 2026 at 6:04 AM
While it's no longer a thing for me, I just want to see an office architect that takes into account space for a sanitary disposal unit in toilet cubicles. Just enough that you're not banging your knees against it while you're dealing with the reason for it being there in the first place. Because eww
Owww.
And yes, very raining.
And yes, very raining.
February 3, 2026 at 9:34 AM
Owww.
And yes, very raining.
And yes, very raining.
For a hot moment there I thought that was a hot chip and crisps sandwich, and I was admiring your dedication to the cause!
February 3, 2026 at 5:32 AM
For a hot moment there I thought that was a hot chip and crisps sandwich, and I was admiring your dedication to the cause!
This brings a whole new (and much more accurate) meaning to the term “vajazzled”.
February 3, 2026 at 5:18 AM
This brings a whole new (and much more accurate) meaning to the term “vajazzled”.
A respiratory virus saved my life too! I was trying to hold myself together during a massive coughing fit when my wrist brushed against my chest, and I thought “that’s a really weird place for my [] to be”. It wasn’t that at all, it was the main tumour.
I was stage 3 already. I’m very, very lucky.
I was stage 3 already. I’m very, very lucky.
February 2, 2026 at 9:24 PM
A respiratory virus saved my life too! I was trying to hold myself together during a massive coughing fit when my wrist brushed against my chest, and I thought “that’s a really weird place for my [] to be”. It wasn’t that at all, it was the main tumour.
I was stage 3 already. I’m very, very lucky.
I was stage 3 already. I’m very, very lucky.
I am 💯 sure that it is harder on spouses and family than it is for the patient. We get wrapped up and taken care of by everyone, but there’s less for the carers. It’s one of the reasons I share the ring theory on a regular basis.
February 2, 2026 at 9:12 PM
I am 💯 sure that it is harder on spouses and family than it is for the patient. We get wrapped up and taken care of by everyone, but there’s less for the carers. It’s one of the reasons I share the ring theory on a regular basis.
I wish I had known that mammograms are recommended every year from 40-50, because I thought them not being funded until 45 meant the risk was minuscule before then. My cancer was already well into my lymph nodes when I found the lump, but plenty of tumours are found between scheduled scans any way.
February 2, 2026 at 9:10 PM
I wish I had known that mammograms are recommended every year from 40-50, because I thought them not being funded until 45 meant the risk was minuscule before then. My cancer was already well into my lymph nodes when I found the lump, but plenty of tumours are found between scheduled scans any way.
Yes, this was really heavy empathised to me too. Yeah, there are some things that are associated with higher/lower risk, but it really just comes down to it’s either going to happen or it doesn’t.
“You noticed a change, you got it checked. That’s the important thing.”
“You noticed a change, you got it checked. That’s the important thing.”
February 2, 2026 at 9:10 PM
Yes, this was really heavy empathised to me too. Yeah, there are some things that are associated with higher/lower risk, but it really just comes down to it’s either going to happen or it doesn’t.
“You noticed a change, you got it checked. That’s the important thing.”
“You noticed a change, you got it checked. That’s the important thing.”
Absolutely. And what your support levels look like makes a big difference.
I settled for letting people know I needed to take a break from business, but without details. I didn’t post any selfies for months (although I took hundreds, I looked good without hair, at least until my eyebrows went…)
I settled for letting people know I needed to take a break from business, but without details. I didn’t post any selfies for months (although I took hundreds, I looked good without hair, at least until my eyebrows went…)
February 2, 2026 at 8:55 PM
Absolutely. And what your support levels look like makes a big difference.
I settled for letting people know I needed to take a break from business, but without details. I didn’t post any selfies for months (although I took hundreds, I looked good without hair, at least until my eyebrows went…)
I settled for letting people know I needed to take a break from business, but without details. I didn’t post any selfies for months (although I took hundreds, I looked good without hair, at least until my eyebrows went…)
I’m really open about it these days, because we see so many truly tragic stories about people whose cancer wasn’t found until it was too late, and that can put people off going to see their doctor because they think it’s always bad news. But found early, it can be a completely different story.
February 2, 2026 at 8:12 PM
I’m really open about it these days, because we see so many truly tragic stories about people whose cancer wasn’t found until it was too late, and that can put people off going to see their doctor because they think it’s always bad news. But found early, it can be a completely different story.
It’s a really sensible approach. My sister gave me some advice when I got diagnosed, based on her own experience, that it’s easier to go through this stuff on a “need to know” basis, at least until you’re pretty clear on the outcomes. I didn’t tell people on here until a year after chemo/surgery.
February 2, 2026 at 8:08 PM
It’s a really sensible approach. My sister gave me some advice when I got diagnosed, based on her own experience, that it’s easier to go through this stuff on a “need to know” basis, at least until you’re pretty clear on the outcomes. I didn’t tell people on here until a year after chemo/surgery.
I’m doing well. I’m about 6 years out from the end of active treatment, although there have been several related surgeries in that time. I still have another 4 years of hormone treatment to reduce my risk of recurrence.
The lymphoedema and nerve pain are annoying, but I mostly enjoy being alive. 😊
The lymphoedema and nerve pain are annoying, but I mostly enjoy being alive. 😊
February 2, 2026 at 8:03 PM
I’m doing well. I’m about 6 years out from the end of active treatment, although there have been several related surgeries in that time. I still have another 4 years of hormone treatment to reduce my risk of recurrence.
The lymphoedema and nerve pain are annoying, but I mostly enjoy being alive. 😊
The lymphoedema and nerve pain are annoying, but I mostly enjoy being alive. 😊
That is wonderful news for both of you! And Delwyn, I'm sorry I'd missed that you were going through this.
We pretty much splurged on a treat after each consultation, round of chemo (maybe not the radiation because that was daily), check up, etc for several years.
We pretty much splurged on a treat after each consultation, round of chemo (maybe not the radiation because that was daily), check up, etc for several years.
February 2, 2026 at 9:22 AM
That is wonderful news for both of you! And Delwyn, I'm sorry I'd missed that you were going through this.
We pretty much splurged on a treat after each consultation, round of chemo (maybe not the radiation because that was daily), check up, etc for several years.
We pretty much splurged on a treat after each consultation, round of chemo (maybe not the radiation because that was daily), check up, etc for several years.
I sometimes feel like being able to pay it forward is a great honour that cancer bestows on us. Having been there, you're able to be there for others in a way that other people can't.
I hope that your prognosis is improving as your treatment progresses. I remember the weight of "inoperable cancer".
I hope that your prognosis is improving as your treatment progresses. I remember the weight of "inoperable cancer".
February 2, 2026 at 8:13 AM
I sometimes feel like being able to pay it forward is a great honour that cancer bestows on us. Having been there, you're able to be there for others in a way that other people can't.
I hope that your prognosis is improving as your treatment progresses. I remember the weight of "inoperable cancer".
I hope that your prognosis is improving as your treatment progresses. I remember the weight of "inoperable cancer".
Yep, the video in this linked article shows the view not from my place. I saw it over the Eastern Hutt Hills, through the canopy of our kōwhai. www.nzherald.co.nz/nz/meteorite...
Meteorite spotted flying over Wellington
PredictWind webcam at the Heretaunga Boating Club in Petone, Wellington NZ captures a meteorite.
Video / PredictWind
www.nzherald.co.nz
January 31, 2026 at 5:28 AM
Yep, the video in this linked article shows the view not from my place. I saw it over the Eastern Hutt Hills, through the canopy of our kōwhai. www.nzherald.co.nz/nz/meteorite...
Yeah, that probably tracks, if it was visible at all from where I am. I shall investigate further!
(I was watching tv and noticed light via peripheral vision.)
(I was watching tv and noticed light via peripheral vision.)
January 31, 2026 at 5:22 AM
Yeah, that probably tracks, if it was visible at all from where I am. I shall investigate further!
(I was watching tv and noticed light via peripheral vision.)
(I was watching tv and noticed light via peripheral vision.)
Do you know what time it was? I remember catching my eye out the window at some point, but I didn’t get a proper look.
January 31, 2026 at 4:54 AM
Do you know what time it was? I remember catching my eye out the window at some point, but I didn’t get a proper look.
Young guy: can we talk some more about your husband?
Me: studiously ignoring him standing there while I examine the sandwiches and donuts at Belen.
Eventually he gave up.
I’m not sure who trained him in engagement techniques, he was trying so hard but missed the mark so wide.
Me: studiously ignoring him standing there while I examine the sandwiches and donuts at Belen.
Eventually he gave up.
I’m not sure who trained him in engagement techniques, he was trying so hard but missed the mark so wide.
January 31, 2026 at 12:26 AM
Young guy: can we talk some more about your husband?
Me: studiously ignoring him standing there while I examine the sandwiches and donuts at Belen.
Eventually he gave up.
I’m not sure who trained him in engagement techniques, he was trying so hard but missed the mark so wide.
Me: studiously ignoring him standing there while I examine the sandwiches and donuts at Belen.
Eventually he gave up.
I’m not sure who trained him in engagement techniques, he was trying so hard but missed the mark so wide.
One of my hydration bags uses the same mechanism, it’s very air/watertight
January 31, 2026 at 12:10 AM
One of my hydration bags uses the same mechanism, it’s very air/watertight
It doesn’t slide, you turn the top of the bag over, insert the nobbly end of the inner stick into the fold, then slide the whole thing across the top of the bag. They’re awesome.
January 31, 2026 at 12:08 AM
It doesn’t slide, you turn the top of the bag over, insert the nobbly end of the inner stick into the fold, then slide the whole thing across the top of the bag. They’re awesome.
Unmediated, that was always when I really woke up for the day.
If I haven’t taken enough of my ADHD meds, that’s about when I crash.
Do you need another coffee?
If I haven’t taken enough of my ADHD meds, that’s about when I crash.
Do you need another coffee?
January 28, 2026 at 3:39 AM
Unmediated, that was always when I really woke up for the day.
If I haven’t taken enough of my ADHD meds, that’s about when I crash.
Do you need another coffee?
If I haven’t taken enough of my ADHD meds, that’s about when I crash.
Do you need another coffee?