aaah, thank you so much!

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thank youuuu 💛

Financially speaking, it's a load off my shoulders and I can actually stop going hungry as often, but I'm still so fucking heartbroken that it had to come to this in the first place. I know it's not really my fault, but I can't help feeling like I failed myself in some way. 8/8

I won't give up everything just yet. I still have another business and side things I can fall back on and put more energy into now, with less upfront costs for materials. 7/8

So I resigned my business license yesterday. I've been trying really hard not to cry too much about it, but man, that shit hurts. Why does everything just go more and more downhill once it's my turn to make something out of myself? It just doesn't feel fair. 6/8

The new tariff policies effectively made it so I couldn't ship anything over there anymore. The huge cost just didn't make any sense anymore. 5/8

At the end of the day, people just can't afford that type of luxury anymore, and I can't afford to keep it running without any support. It also doesn't help that a huge chunk of my online customer base was from the US. 4/8

But I started to realize more and more these past few weeks that it's just not sustainable anymore, no matter how much I fight and sacrifice for it. Things have gotten more expensive, from materials I needed to shipping costs. 3/8

It was rough, but I had managed to build it up all by myself, all while working a full-time job and studying. Once 2020 and the pandemic hit, it got a lot harder to maintain everything, but somehow, I still prevailed. 2/8