update: just needed to be watching more really good music videos.

LOVEEE THIS❤️ thrive👼

OH THANK YOUU the one on wonderunit? this looks really good. a big hurdle for me has been even just programs.. i work on my ipad and procreate can do boarding technically, but its a bit.. uncomfortable for me? i have not bought procreate dreams so lol idk. i can make the effort to work on pc again

which admittedly, this is why ive always felt really inspired to do music video type animations. i have no drought of ideas on that and how it can express my wants lol. so maybe i should apply myself more to that more often, i tend to go "eek this is a lot of work rn!" and shy away from it

esp when a lot of my inspiration is from music and lyricism.. which i always visualize A TON to music! but encapsulating that in a more static drawn form is what feels sticky. theres plenty of extant imagery &association with hard music, i guess the synthesis of that to composition is the "err" part

i get pretty clogged up on the steps where i am going "hey, i have this interest or feeling, HOW do i make a FULL cool piece that touches into that!!". like biting off more than i can chew too fast. i think i also have trouble translating the conceptual stage from mind to paper,

TRUE TRUE no this is really important for me too bc i think a big issue with my self expression is how unrelaxed i am about it. i tend to be pretty rigid and perfectionist & aim to go big or go home. id benefit a ton from remembering that art is a form of play, and play is how you discover

what do you all do for trying to develop and get in touch with your own inspirations / visual language? i think theres a lot of ways to do this i need to sit with. popular answer trends to pinterest but when i tried in the past i just. oh god i hated it there. it confused me too. IM SPIRITUALLY OLD.

trying to remind myself to trust the process bc rn i feel like i'm mostly developing my technical skill rn and i'm not really doing much on the stylistic and conceptual levels... which is a bummer. i have a beautiful medic inner world full of metal and meat and sex begging to come out

really debated making it the more overt clitskrieg or something, but i really hope this is a blink and youll miss it thing in a match that makes someone go, "wait, hang on a second..."

ty for yapping with me too HAHA, this is also way too real i feel it.. exactly why im like perpetually disatisfied with how i depict him rn, but that love has driven me into such a positive relationship with trying to constantly aim upwards & develop. that really is the power of muse. TY dr. ludwig