...it still sounds like a bunch of empty words and meaningless and mostly wrong my opinion.

but still social networks, like bluesky, x, facebook and etc., where people mostly share and exchange opinions, thoughts, etc...

I can ignore everything and purely post everything, what I've done - posted, done - posted. even not finished - showed and downloaded that like “wip and I'll finish everything, but later).
but it can take forever, and I've already done it with music.

I even know how to draw (not an artist after all, I just like to draw everything in illustrator with curved lines and fill it in photoshop and not very perfectly). but it's one thing to say it, another thing to prove it in practice and that's where my fear starts.

I'm a musician, I make music and I should be used to the public, but NO. I'm still afraid to make music, even to try. I'm afraid to publicize to the masses and most of what I got was an accident.

I've been in this subculture for 3 years now, and I want to create something. But first of all, I'm afraid to post anything, even anonymously.

There were 100 people there and maybe more, but because of my fear of being at some public event, even when everything is good and nothing bad should be there and literally everyone is interested (even me), I blew such a unique opportunity.

But instead of walking with them and so 4 hours to walk (10km route) in places I know and start to open myself (even when I do not have a fursuit, I just wanted to be with like-minded people who just do not mind even with people on the street to walk), I quickly went home.

so a week ago there was a furry walk (furwalk, fursuit walk, whatever) literally near me, right on my way home, which I really wanted to participate in and I thought it was fun (actually it is).

i'm afraid to put on clothes and look stupid, while the others are wearing what I would like to wear and nothing. one of them came with panties on his head and it's ok (it was a study normal day).

I tried some games: Batman Arkham Shadow, Beat Saber, Plank experience, VRChat. And with Steam Link: Bonelab, Boneworks, Half Life Alyx, Electronauts, Phasmophobia, The Lab.
I also tried using a headset as a pc monitor with mixed reality link and virtual desktop.