Loving father
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I'm sharing a journal about bringing up my daughter. Through the struggles of coparenting. https://diaryformybeloved.wordpress.com
I respond to your mother with such caution just to defend my right to care for you. It is exhausting to fight for the tiniest connection while she remains so inflexible.
Cancellations again – could there be light at the end of the tunnel?
It’s a sinking feeling to be told I can’t see you but as you grow you’ll be able to express yourself. Perhaps that’s not too far off.
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February 8, 2026 at 10:29 AM
I respond to your mother with such caution just to defend my right to care for you. It is exhausting to fight for the tiniest connection while she remains so inflexible.
The high chair is empty and home is far too quiet today. I feel foolish for my optimism when our beautiful plans can evaporate so quickly without any warning.
A double serving frustratingly half cancelled
We were meant to have two days together, but however optimistic the reality never seems to favour us.
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February 1, 2026 at 10:21 AM
The high chair is empty and home is far too quiet today. I feel foolish for my optimism when our beautiful plans can evaporate so quickly without any warning.
Saying goodbye after time together hurts more than anything. I saw you waving at me from under the cargo bike cover. That tiny moment of love is what keeps my heart warm.
Creating warmth on another frosty Sunday
While it seems everything around me rotates around family, I get my 5 hours of mandated court time to see you.
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January 25, 2026 at 6:58 PM
Saying goodbye after time together hurts more than anything. I saw you waving at me from under the cargo bike cover. That tiny moment of love is what keeps my heart warm.
I worry about the manipulation you face when we are apart. Fighting for our relationship is exhausting but I will never stop fighting to protect it.
A concerning video call and working to build our connection
Our video calls are meant to help us build our relationship, but your mum is spoiling them.
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January 20, 2026 at 7:18 PM
I worry about the manipulation you face when we are apart. Fighting for our relationship is exhausting but I will never stop fighting to protect it.
I spent all week thinking about our time together. I found some lovely books at the library and planned a special salmon lunch for us. Now home is silent and the fridge is full of food we won't eat.
Missing you and having an empty bedroom
A hollow weekend. Plans to decorate your bedroom will be paused until next time. Missing you feels like a perpetual feeling.
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January 18, 2026 at 10:11 AM
I spent all week thinking about our time together. I found some lovely books at the library and planned a special salmon lunch for us. Now home is silent and the fridge is full of food we won't eat.
Staring into your beautiful oval eyes today warmed my heart and reminded me why I keep fighting for us.
A chilly new year feeding the ducks
It was lovely to see you after a few long weeks apart. Although it was super cold, my love for you is like a furnace.
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January 11, 2026 at 6:38 PM
Staring into your beautiful oval eyes today warmed my heart and reminded me why I keep fighting for us.
I tried to be flexible with our schedule but every small request turns into a problem. It's heartbreaking when your mum uses every opportunity to cut our precious time short.
An unnecessarily hostile start to the year
It seems like basic cooperation from your mum is still something that needs to be developed in the New Year. I'll remain optimistic for us, though.
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January 6, 2026 at 7:15 PM
I tried to be flexible with our schedule but every small request turns into a problem. It's heartbreaking when your mum uses every opportunity to cut our precious time short.
Stay strong dads, 2026 and beyond
December 31, 2025 at 5:51 PM
Stay strong dads, 2026 and beyond
My only wish is for more time with you. I hope next year is better and less costly. I feel defeated being barely in your life.
A lunch date together, chatting about birthdays and festivities
It’s hard not to reflect on the months gone by. I'm hoping that in future years this time around my birthday is happier and we're closer.
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December 14, 2025 at 6:40 PM
My only wish is for more time with you. I hope next year is better and less costly. I feel defeated being barely in your life.
Once 9am passed and I knew you were coming I allowed myself to feel excited. This would be our first proper family Christmas together at home. I couldn't be happier to make these memories.
Our happy family Christmas lunch
We came together for our first proper Christmas meal. I can't wait for more special moments coming in the future.
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December 7, 2025 at 6:40 PM
Once 9am passed and I knew you were coming I allowed myself to feel excited. This would be our first proper family Christmas together at home. I couldn't be happier to make these memories.
I treasure every single moment together so I hate the thought of losing our day.
Dreaded strikes stopping our cuddles
More cancelled time. It's cold and we're not cosy together. I feel so guilty.
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November 30, 2025 at 12:01 PM
I treasure every single moment together so I hate the thought of losing our day.
I was so happy to have you get stuck in with the cooking. Our day felt like cosy family time doing the normal things families do.
It’s starting to feel a lot like Christmas
I created a cosy time at home for us and we got Christmas started just in case we can't celebrate in the coming weeks.
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November 23, 2025 at 7:46 PM
I was so happy to have you get stuck in with the cooking. Our day felt like cosy family time doing the normal things families do.
It feels like the legal issues and problems are never going to end.
Your mum fighting with the court about the order
The fighting against me having time with you has moved to object to the court order.
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November 22, 2025 at 8:50 PM
It feels like the legal issues and problems are never going to end.
I'll keep the letter for you to read one day so you know what happened. I wanted to raise you equally with your mum but she has done everything to keep us apart.
An unexpected letter for you?
Every day brings a constant tension as I fear what bad news might arrive next. The pain of previous unexpected messages makes even a routine check of the letterbox feel haunting.
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November 20, 2025 at 7:28 PM
I'll keep the letter for you to read one day so you know what happened. I wanted to raise you equally with your mum but she has done everything to keep us apart.
We made the most out of our day and had a lovely time. The streets are filled with autumn leaves and families enjoying the last mild weather days of the year.
Reclaiming difficult River Town memories with happy moments
We started the visit to River Town by seeing friends. On Sunday, my focus was making precious memories with you. With a chill in the air, Christmas feels close!
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November 16, 2025 at 5:23 PM
We made the most out of our day and had a lovely time. The streets are filled with autumn leaves and families enjoying the last mild weather days of the year.
The world is a beautiful place when you see it through a little one’s eyes.
It’s one of the most beautiful things about being a parent.
It’s one of the most beautiful things about being a parent.
November 11, 2025 at 6:53 PM
The world is a beautiful place when you see it through a little one’s eyes.
It’s one of the most beautiful things about being a parent.
It’s one of the most beautiful things about being a parent.
When times are hard,
remember that most things
are better with patience.
remember that most things
are better with patience.
November 10, 2025 at 7:16 PM
When times are hard,
remember that most things
are better with patience.
remember that most things
are better with patience.
Autumn activities at home and thinking about our future
A lovely cosy time at home and lots of working on our future.
A lovely cosy time at home and lots of working on our future.
Autumn activities at home and thinking about our future
A lovely cosy time at home and lots of working on our future.
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November 9, 2025 at 8:41 PM
Autumn activities at home and thinking about our future
A lovely cosy time at home and lots of working on our future.
A lovely cosy time at home and lots of working on our future.
We lost out on celebrating Halloween and won't have Bonfire Night together either. We'll have to get used to missing so many special moments for now. I promise to make up for it in the future.
Missing trick or treating, bonfire night and most importantly, time with loved ones
I visited our friends for some family time, but you were kept home on Sunday, so we couldn't see each other again.
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November 2, 2025 at 1:05 PM
We lost out on celebrating Halloween and won't have Bonfire Night together either. We'll have to get used to missing so many special moments for now. I promise to make up for it in the future.
November 1, 2025 at 1:44 PM
Seeing how local families celebrate occasions like Halloween for their kids tends to remind me of all the things we're not doing together.
Our Halloween video call missing the trick or treating
I love our calls and this time I could include the pumpkin we made together!
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October 28, 2025 at 10:06 PM
Seeing how local families celebrate occasions like Halloween for their kids tends to remind me of all the things we're not doing together.
In the few hours we had together, we got lots done, but it's over too quickly. At least we finished our Halloween decorations!
A lovely day of arts and crafts with my pumpkin
Our rainy day inside getting cosy with arts and crafts and most importantly, the pumpkin!
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October 26, 2025 at 8:08 PM
In the few hours we had together, we got lots done, but it's over too quickly. At least we finished our Halloween decorations!
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