deviousxen
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Generative Traumagenic Intelligence (GTI)
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Visual artists/music/chiptune/
cashapp: $YearningSpark
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Generative Traumagenic Intelligence (GTI)
she/her/they/
Visual artists/music/chiptune/
cashapp: $YearningSpark
Why is the Mucinex family booger guy the HHS Director?
February 8, 2026 at 8:22 PM
Why is the Mucinex family booger guy the HHS Director?
Reposted by deviousxen
Literally my favorite part of any aquarium.
February 7, 2026 at 11:01 PM
Literally my favorite part of any aquarium.
Only a complete fool would ever trust a single person after everything I've endured now.
*turns to face audience*
Just found out I was the only non member of a whole discord about venting. There were newer mods added to it later.
What the fuck. I'm never joining anything again.
*turns to face audience*
Just found out I was the only non member of a whole discord about venting. There were newer mods added to it later.
What the fuck. I'm never joining anything again.
February 8, 2026 at 9:21 AM
Only a complete fool would ever trust a single person after everything I've endured now.
*turns to face audience*
Just found out I was the only non member of a whole discord about venting. There were newer mods added to it later.
What the fuck. I'm never joining anything again.
*turns to face audience*
Just found out I was the only non member of a whole discord about venting. There were newer mods added to it later.
What the fuck. I'm never joining anything again.
No hug?
Damn, I fumbled.
Man, fuck the last few days.
:(
Damn, I fumbled.
Man, fuck the last few days.
:(
February 8, 2026 at 4:54 AM
No hug?
Damn, I fumbled.
Man, fuck the last few days.
:(
Damn, I fumbled.
Man, fuck the last few days.
:(
Always knew Mr. Beast was a form of The Antichrist, but, like, of course!
OFC its Mormons.
Ofc. It fits bc he never stops fucking smiling either and he's dead inside too or miserable somewhere.
Mr. Beast's inner child crying bc the jungle gym is a casino.
'Please stop doing this to us. 🙏 '
OFC its Mormons.
Ofc. It fits bc he never stops fucking smiling either and he's dead inside too or miserable somewhere.
Mr. Beast's inner child crying bc the jungle gym is a casino.
'Please stop doing this to us. 🙏 '
February 8, 2026 at 2:53 AM
Always knew Mr. Beast was a form of The Antichrist, but, like, of course!
OFC its Mormons.
Ofc. It fits bc he never stops fucking smiling either and he's dead inside too or miserable somewhere.
Mr. Beast's inner child crying bc the jungle gym is a casino.
'Please stop doing this to us. 🙏 '
OFC its Mormons.
Ofc. It fits bc he never stops fucking smiling either and he's dead inside too or miserable somewhere.
Mr. Beast's inner child crying bc the jungle gym is a casino.
'Please stop doing this to us. 🙏 '
Ordered 'Noodles and Co'.
Because I believe I am apathetic.
I am not. I am quite upset.
I deserve to treat myself better. I struggled to all day. But, now, despite disappointment and lethargy, I will give myself some nourishment when I'm not in the mood for anything else and cannot consume gluten
Because I believe I am apathetic.
I am not. I am quite upset.
I deserve to treat myself better. I struggled to all day. But, now, despite disappointment and lethargy, I will give myself some nourishment when I'm not in the mood for anything else and cannot consume gluten
February 8, 2026 at 2:30 AM
Ordered 'Noodles and Co'.
Because I believe I am apathetic.
I am not. I am quite upset.
I deserve to treat myself better. I struggled to all day. But, now, despite disappointment and lethargy, I will give myself some nourishment when I'm not in the mood for anything else and cannot consume gluten
Because I believe I am apathetic.
I am not. I am quite upset.
I deserve to treat myself better. I struggled to all day. But, now, despite disappointment and lethargy, I will give myself some nourishment when I'm not in the mood for anything else and cannot consume gluten
tbh pay us too
Pay every gay girl or creature with BPD
Universal basic income and you give us goons and we don't cackle while erasing the planet with antimatter or obsessive episodes.
You'd be disarming a curse within me with some of that money. You'd be paying to be environmentally conscious.
Pay every gay girl or creature with BPD
Universal basic income and you give us goons and we don't cackle while erasing the planet with antimatter or obsessive episodes.
You'd be disarming a curse within me with some of that money. You'd be paying to be environmentally conscious.
society should PAY ME for managing my BPD and not being EVIL and OUT OF CONTROL like literally, i am doing a public service, constantly, you know like
February 8, 2026 at 2:20 AM
tbh pay us too
Pay every gay girl or creature with BPD
Universal basic income and you give us goons and we don't cackle while erasing the planet with antimatter or obsessive episodes.
You'd be disarming a curse within me with some of that money. You'd be paying to be environmentally conscious.
Pay every gay girl or creature with BPD
Universal basic income and you give us goons and we don't cackle while erasing the planet with antimatter or obsessive episodes.
You'd be disarming a curse within me with some of that money. You'd be paying to be environmentally conscious.
To be clear - Tron should continue with or without Leto [you can keep him in a cage or whatever off set]
But, nah, it'll never not be gross for Hollywood to force a dude on us who 'rape aura farms' more than acts.
Put Jared in a Zoo or whatever so we can understand how cults form via study.
But, nah, it'll never not be gross for Hollywood to force a dude on us who 'rape aura farms' more than acts.
Put Jared in a Zoo or whatever so we can understand how cults form via study.
I’d really appreciate if Hollywood stopped forcing Jared Leto on us.
a man in a red jacket is standing in front of a sign that says nbc universal
ALT: a man in a red jacket is standing in front of a sign that says nbc universal
media.tenor.com
February 8, 2026 at 1:54 AM
To be clear - Tron should continue with or without Leto [you can keep him in a cage or whatever off set]
But, nah, it'll never not be gross for Hollywood to force a dude on us who 'rape aura farms' more than acts.
Put Jared in a Zoo or whatever so we can understand how cults form via study.
But, nah, it'll never not be gross for Hollywood to force a dude on us who 'rape aura farms' more than acts.
Put Jared in a Zoo or whatever so we can understand how cults form via study.
Which NBC writers are winning a grand prize vacation to their own ironic, long term mega warehouse?
Follow up question- What kind of 'mega warehouse' Will house the guys all hyperfixated on and or allowing the current generation of 'mega warehouses'?
Like, yes, very funny writing. But...
Follow up question- What kind of 'mega warehouse' Will house the guys all hyperfixated on and or allowing the current generation of 'mega warehouses'?
Like, yes, very funny writing. But...
February 8, 2026 at 1:43 AM
Which NBC writers are winning a grand prize vacation to their own ironic, long term mega warehouse?
Follow up question- What kind of 'mega warehouse' Will house the guys all hyperfixated on and or allowing the current generation of 'mega warehouses'?
Like, yes, very funny writing. But...
Follow up question- What kind of 'mega warehouse' Will house the guys all hyperfixated on and or allowing the current generation of 'mega warehouses'?
Like, yes, very funny writing. But...
You don't think Nixon would cum his pants before critiquing any derivative acts of abuse of power?
Just, immediately, him gushing violently like a fire hose or elephant?
Wouldn't he feel secure in his legacy of tormenting the Earth and its collective consciousness?
Just, immediately, him gushing violently like a fire hose or elephant?
Wouldn't he feel secure in his legacy of tormenting the Earth and its collective consciousness?
Somewhere in Hell, Richard Nixon is being forced to watch everything Tr*mp is doing with absolutely no consequences. It's the most devious punishment the Devil could come up with.
February 8, 2026 at 1:10 AM
You don't think Nixon would cum his pants before critiquing any derivative acts of abuse of power?
Just, immediately, him gushing violently like a fire hose or elephant?
Wouldn't he feel secure in his legacy of tormenting the Earth and its collective consciousness?
Just, immediately, him gushing violently like a fire hose or elephant?
Wouldn't he feel secure in his legacy of tormenting the Earth and its collective consciousness?
I used to have places to sit, video games I knew would make me feel better that were mine, DVDs, a light box, a desk, an audio card, speakers for music...
My mouth could kiss people.
I had posters. I had years of CDs.
I had earrings and a lip ring.
I had plans, hopes and dreams.
My mouth could kiss people.
I had posters. I had years of CDs.
I had earrings and a lip ring.
I had plans, hopes and dreams.
February 8, 2026 at 1:00 AM
I used to have places to sit, video games I knew would make me feel better that were mine, DVDs, a light box, a desk, an audio card, speakers for music...
My mouth could kiss people.
I had posters. I had years of CDs.
I had earrings and a lip ring.
I had plans, hopes and dreams.
My mouth could kiss people.
I had posters. I had years of CDs.
I had earrings and a lip ring.
I had plans, hopes and dreams.
I'm watching Starfleet Academy? I guess?
Why are they in the Gen V campus?
Like, it's fine, but...
Could you invent a new format of television? You guys have millions of dollars.
This has nothing to do with woke.
This has to do with a lack of meaning.
Invent new story formats? Please? $$$$$$
Why are they in the Gen V campus?
Like, it's fine, but...
Could you invent a new format of television? You guys have millions of dollars.
This has nothing to do with woke.
This has to do with a lack of meaning.
Invent new story formats? Please? $$$$$$
February 8, 2026 at 12:30 AM
I'm watching Starfleet Academy? I guess?
Why are they in the Gen V campus?
Like, it's fine, but...
Could you invent a new format of television? You guys have millions of dollars.
This has nothing to do with woke.
This has to do with a lack of meaning.
Invent new story formats? Please? $$$$$$
Why are they in the Gen V campus?
Like, it's fine, but...
Could you invent a new format of television? You guys have millions of dollars.
This has nothing to do with woke.
This has to do with a lack of meaning.
Invent new story formats? Please? $$$$$$
My mouth hurts so bad that I wish I had morphine and antibiotics.
Aka: I pretend it doesn't taste like blood or hurt because the emergency room will treat me worse than my own self esteem will.
They used to give people cocaine for this.
But, we live in pain world, Morty; They'd rather hurt here!
Aka: I pretend it doesn't taste like blood or hurt because the emergency room will treat me worse than my own self esteem will.
They used to give people cocaine for this.
But, we live in pain world, Morty; They'd rather hurt here!
February 8, 2026 at 12:26 AM
My mouth hurts so bad that I wish I had morphine and antibiotics.
Aka: I pretend it doesn't taste like blood or hurt because the emergency room will treat me worse than my own self esteem will.
They used to give people cocaine for this.
But, we live in pain world, Morty; They'd rather hurt here!
Aka: I pretend it doesn't taste like blood or hurt because the emergency room will treat me worse than my own self esteem will.
They used to give people cocaine for this.
But, we live in pain world, Morty; They'd rather hurt here!
Do we do a mutual aid post for medical expenses like teeth?
Or do we lie about being chronically ill hoping that people with a parasocial relationship with us or fetish have higher hopes in betting on the 'winning transsexual horse'?
Or do we lie about being chronically ill hoping that people with a parasocial relationship with us or fetish have higher hopes in betting on the 'winning transsexual horse'?
February 8, 2026 at 12:16 AM
Do we do a mutual aid post for medical expenses like teeth?
Or do we lie about being chronically ill hoping that people with a parasocial relationship with us or fetish have higher hopes in betting on the 'winning transsexual horse'?
Or do we lie about being chronically ill hoping that people with a parasocial relationship with us or fetish have higher hopes in betting on the 'winning transsexual horse'?
Tell a race horse or adventurer who has already seen and equipped and fought evil with 'The Time Knife', seen glory and felt true dignity- Who has trope of a Lost Kingdom or World- Tell them that they're 'internalizing ableism' When they want nothing more than to race the wind itself.
February 7, 2026 at 11:51 PM
Tell a race horse or adventurer who has already seen and equipped and fought evil with 'The Time Knife', seen glory and felt true dignity- Who has trope of a Lost Kingdom or World- Tell them that they're 'internalizing ableism' When they want nothing more than to race the wind itself.
I don't wanna desperately believe 'Star Trek Academy' And 'Strawberry Cough Liquid Diamonds' Will cheer us up...
We used to learn new things daily and now mentally can't.
Accomplishing self care is not satisfactory. Growth is. Meaning is. Joy is. Euphoria is. Living is. Breaths you hold and savor!
We used to learn new things daily and now mentally can't.
Accomplishing self care is not satisfactory. Growth is. Meaning is. Joy is. Euphoria is. Living is. Breaths you hold and savor!
February 7, 2026 at 11:44 PM
I don't wanna desperately believe 'Star Trek Academy' And 'Strawberry Cough Liquid Diamonds' Will cheer us up...
We used to learn new things daily and now mentally can't.
Accomplishing self care is not satisfactory. Growth is. Meaning is. Joy is. Euphoria is. Living is. Breaths you hold and savor!
We used to learn new things daily and now mentally can't.
Accomplishing self care is not satisfactory. Growth is. Meaning is. Joy is. Euphoria is. Living is. Breaths you hold and savor!
The only way I exist is via the grace of numbness or forgetting who I am; Not by remembering her.
Every time I remember who I am, who I was supposed to be; All I feel is grief.
I'm tired of fetishizing my age to cope with what I'll never experience.
Coping isn't living its sleeping dreamless.
Every time I remember who I am, who I was supposed to be; All I feel is grief.
I'm tired of fetishizing my age to cope with what I'll never experience.
Coping isn't living its sleeping dreamless.
February 7, 2026 at 11:42 PM
The only way I exist is via the grace of numbness or forgetting who I am; Not by remembering her.
Every time I remember who I am, who I was supposed to be; All I feel is grief.
I'm tired of fetishizing my age to cope with what I'll never experience.
Coping isn't living its sleeping dreamless.
Every time I remember who I am, who I was supposed to be; All I feel is grief.
I'm tired of fetishizing my age to cope with what I'll never experience.
Coping isn't living its sleeping dreamless.
I wish I had no desire to be my gender.
Or have a family.
Or like other girls.
I wish I didn't need anything.
I will never feel free.
I will never honor what in me misses a feeling of hope or home.
Every minute I spend in this wrong suit and wrong life is a minute of my soul evaporating.
Or have a family.
Or like other girls.
I wish I didn't need anything.
I will never feel free.
I will never honor what in me misses a feeling of hope or home.
Every minute I spend in this wrong suit and wrong life is a minute of my soul evaporating.
February 7, 2026 at 11:39 PM
I wish I had no desire to be my gender.
Or have a family.
Or like other girls.
I wish I didn't need anything.
I will never feel free.
I will never honor what in me misses a feeling of hope or home.
Every minute I spend in this wrong suit and wrong life is a minute of my soul evaporating.
Or have a family.
Or like other girls.
I wish I didn't need anything.
I will never feel free.
I will never honor what in me misses a feeling of hope or home.
Every minute I spend in this wrong suit and wrong life is a minute of my soul evaporating.
Try my hardest with nothing. Grieve and lose more. Try my hardest again. Lose more. Grieve.
Less flesh. Try again. Grieve.
Try until you are old and forgotten and alone; Grieve.
Realize you've nothing left to give and that it didn't matter... That you lost. That things will never feel like home.
Less flesh. Try again. Grieve.
Try until you are old and forgotten and alone; Grieve.
Realize you've nothing left to give and that it didn't matter... That you lost. That things will never feel like home.
February 7, 2026 at 10:55 PM
Try my hardest with nothing. Grieve and lose more. Try my hardest again. Lose more. Grieve.
Less flesh. Try again. Grieve.
Try until you are old and forgotten and alone; Grieve.
Realize you've nothing left to give and that it didn't matter... That you lost. That things will never feel like home.
Less flesh. Try again. Grieve.
Try until you are old and forgotten and alone; Grieve.
Realize you've nothing left to give and that it didn't matter... That you lost. That things will never feel like home.
Man, fuck you for making me panic all day over nothing.
February 7, 2026 at 10:49 PM
Man, fuck you for making me panic all day over nothing.
Wish my Mom would just send me a picture of my cat.
I'm not asking for much, Mom. I'm asking for a picture of my cat I don't give a fuck how you believe I need to grieve my life long best friend.
She's going out of her way to not send me evidence of him.
I'm not asking for much, Mom. I'm asking for a picture of my cat I don't give a fuck how you believe I need to grieve my life long best friend.
She's going out of her way to not send me evidence of him.
February 7, 2026 at 10:47 PM
Wish my Mom would just send me a picture of my cat.
I'm not asking for much, Mom. I'm asking for a picture of my cat I don't give a fuck how you believe I need to grieve my life long best friend.
She's going out of her way to not send me evidence of him.
I'm not asking for much, Mom. I'm asking for a picture of my cat I don't give a fuck how you believe I need to grieve my life long best friend.
She's going out of her way to not send me evidence of him.
Once one feels as if they are treating their friends worse than they are their enemies (systemic), is that perhaps an indicator to rip everything up from the foundation up and then start again?
February 7, 2026 at 10:39 PM
Once one feels as if they are treating their friends worse than they are their enemies (systemic), is that perhaps an indicator to rip everything up from the foundation up and then start again?
Give me a budget of a few grand and let me build an audio set up and signal path and let me make up a new art identity and name and give me a year.
Let me make things without any association with my bad life.
Let me make completely fresh stuff and start over.
I wanna Villainous Wrath it all.
Let me make things without any association with my bad life.
Let me make completely fresh stuff and start over.
I wanna Villainous Wrath it all.
February 7, 2026 at 10:30 PM
Give me a budget of a few grand and let me build an audio set up and signal path and let me make up a new art identity and name and give me a year.
Let me make things without any association with my bad life.
Let me make completely fresh stuff and start over.
I wanna Villainous Wrath it all.
Let me make things without any association with my bad life.
Let me make completely fresh stuff and start over.
I wanna Villainous Wrath it all.
Fuck you, Hainbach. Give literally a single poor person a piece of lab equipment or a mixer or a dictaphone.
Let me do DAWless, you sweater wearing Christmas bastard fuck.
Let me do tape loops. Fuck you give me your audio card and a few months.
Cover my dentist and let me cook you fuckers. $$
Let me do DAWless, you sweater wearing Christmas bastard fuck.
Let me do tape loops. Fuck you give me your audio card and a few months.
Cover my dentist and let me cook you fuckers. $$
February 7, 2026 at 10:28 PM
Fuck you, Hainbach. Give literally a single poor person a piece of lab equipment or a mixer or a dictaphone.
Let me do DAWless, you sweater wearing Christmas bastard fuck.
Let me do tape loops. Fuck you give me your audio card and a few months.
Cover my dentist and let me cook you fuckers. $$
Let me do DAWless, you sweater wearing Christmas bastard fuck.
Let me do tape loops. Fuck you give me your audio card and a few months.
Cover my dentist and let me cook you fuckers. $$
I miss my audio card and my pedals and it feeling like they were *mine* and safe.
I miss having the ability to make art.
I dont care if it's internalized ableism; If I can't live my life, fucking kill me or give me something to hope or live for. Or eject my brain.
I miss having the ability to make art.
I dont care if it's internalized ableism; If I can't live my life, fucking kill me or give me something to hope or live for. Or eject my brain.
February 7, 2026 at 10:26 PM
I miss my audio card and my pedals and it feeling like they were *mine* and safe.
I miss having the ability to make art.
I dont care if it's internalized ableism; If I can't live my life, fucking kill me or give me something to hope or live for. Or eject my brain.
I miss having the ability to make art.
I dont care if it's internalized ableism; If I can't live my life, fucking kill me or give me something to hope or live for. Or eject my brain.