Deviant Newt
@deviantnewt.bsky.social
Not a catgirl or a catboy but definitely a cat-they, I'm a monsterlover and I have too many ideas for how lazy I am. MDNI/🔞 just because, 34 and French /neg
And by appealing, I don't mean like, physically, or romantically. Just, overall, I'm checking more "cons" boxes than "pros".
November 26, 2025 at 5:05 AM
And by appealing, I don't mean like, physically, or romantically. Just, overall, I'm checking more "cons" boxes than "pros".
(And no, this is not a sucide note. Just me being all maudlin, I guess. I could have written this in my journal, sure. But I can't really write these days, don't have the dexterity for it.)
November 26, 2025 at 4:59 AM
(And no, this is not a sucide note. Just me being all maudlin, I guess. I could have written this in my journal, sure. But I can't really write these days, don't have the dexterity for it.)
And I don't want pity, I don't want assurances that I'm enough when clearly I'm not. And it's ok, I guess. Not all stories end well. It just sucks that this one is mine.
November 26, 2025 at 4:59 AM
And I don't want pity, I don't want assurances that I'm enough when clearly I'm not. And it's ok, I guess. Not all stories end well. It just sucks that this one is mine.
Someone who doesn't sit on a mountain of failures, someone who felt safe enough to try, to risk.
But nope. Just a lonely 30-something craving connection and too broken to even know what it means, becoming less and less appealing by the day.
But nope. Just a lonely 30-something craving connection and too broken to even know what it means, becoming less and less appealing by the day.
November 26, 2025 at 4:59 AM
Someone who doesn't sit on a mountain of failures, someone who felt safe enough to try, to risk.
But nope. Just a lonely 30-something craving connection and too broken to even know what it means, becoming less and less appealing by the day.
But nope. Just a lonely 30-something craving connection and too broken to even know what it means, becoming less and less appealing by the day.
Someone who wouldn't need to compartimentalize their feelings about their family because they depend on them.
Someone who could have normal relationships with people instead of always feeling too much, always feeling too big, always not enough.
Someone who could have normal relationships with people instead of always feeling too much, always feeling too big, always not enough.
November 26, 2025 at 4:59 AM
Someone who wouldn't need to compartimentalize their feelings about their family because they depend on them.
Someone who could have normal relationships with people instead of always feeling too much, always feeling too big, always not enough.
Someone who could have normal relationships with people instead of always feeling too much, always feeling too big, always not enough.
Like, yeah people live their lives and shit. Showering at night : i get it. Loud talking?K Yeah, sure. VACUUMING? and not just a little "oops i spilled something powdery, better clean it up quick", sounds ike a deep clean, at 10pm? My sibling in Cthulhu, what the fuck.
November 25, 2025 at 9:11 PM
Like, yeah people live their lives and shit. Showering at night : i get it. Loud talking?K Yeah, sure. VACUUMING? and not just a little "oops i spilled something powdery, better clean it up quick", sounds ike a deep clean, at 10pm? My sibling in Cthulhu, what the fuck.
I'm wondering this because it's 10pm, the upstairs neighbor is vacuuming their place and I don't really *feel* annoyed like I usually do.
November 25, 2025 at 9:09 PM
I'm wondering this because it's 10pm, the upstairs neighbor is vacuuming their place and I don't really *feel* annoyed like I usually do.
mind*, even
Seriously, I woke up to her having made so many calls on my behalf (which is super helpful). Meanwhile, I let pretty much all the calls I receive go to voicemail to filter them T_T
Seriously, I woke up to her having made so many calls on my behalf (which is super helpful). Meanwhile, I let pretty much all the calls I receive go to voicemail to filter them T_T
November 25, 2025 at 8:31 PM
mind*, even
Seriously, I woke up to her having made so many calls on my behalf (which is super helpful). Meanwhile, I let pretty much all the calls I receive go to voicemail to filter them T_T
Seriously, I woke up to her having made so many calls on my behalf (which is super helpful). Meanwhile, I let pretty much all the calls I receive go to voicemail to filter them T_T
I'm not even going to read it, but using an image from a video where Trump himself says it's ok to call him "names" like despot and fascist while beaming at a guy who called him a fascist as a thumbnail probably doesn't really serve the point they're trying to make :')
November 25, 2025 at 2:40 PM
I'm not even going to read it, but using an image from a video where Trump himself says it's ok to call him "names" like despot and fascist while beaming at a guy who called him a fascist as a thumbnail probably doesn't really serve the point they're trying to make :')
Reposted by Deviant Newt
Me at any inconvenience
November 24, 2025 at 11:48 PM
Me at any inconvenience
FINE, how much is this stupid game?
xD
xD
November 24, 2025 at 11:44 PM
FINE, how much is this stupid game?
xD
xD
And all she wants is to stay A Mom™, she even says she doesn't sees herself as a grandmother.
Okay, sorry for the vent posts but damn. Ma'am, get yourself a semblance of identity and leave your kids alone, I beg you 😭
Okay, sorry for the vent posts but damn. Ma'am, get yourself a semblance of identity and leave your kids alone, I beg you 😭
November 24, 2025 at 9:16 AM
And all she wants is to stay A Mom™, she even says she doesn't sees herself as a grandmother.
Okay, sorry for the vent posts but damn. Ma'am, get yourself a semblance of identity and leave your kids alone, I beg you 😭
Okay, sorry for the vent posts but damn. Ma'am, get yourself a semblance of identity and leave your kids alone, I beg you 😭
Like, I refuse to be her project. Do I need help? Yes! And I will always need help. But the kind of help I need right now as a single adult living by themself and socially isolated is different than the kind of help me living with someone I'm in a relationship with needs/would need.
November 24, 2025 at 9:14 AM
Like, I refuse to be her project. Do I need help? Yes! And I will always need help. But the kind of help I need right now as a single adult living by themself and socially isolated is different than the kind of help me living with someone I'm in a relationship with needs/would need.
(Yes yes,condoms don't only prevent pregnancies, I know, I'm talking about situations where they would only be used like that)
Seriously, my mom's ideal future is me and her living together until one of us dies and just...no. For some years, *maybe*, as a last resort but no.
Seriously, my mom's ideal future is me and her living together until one of us dies and just...no. For some years, *maybe*, as a last resort but no.
November 24, 2025 at 9:12 AM
(Yes yes,condoms don't only prevent pregnancies, I know, I'm talking about situations where they would only be used like that)
Seriously, my mom's ideal future is me and her living together until one of us dies and just...no. For some years, *maybe*, as a last resort but no.
Seriously, my mom's ideal future is me and her living together until one of us dies and just...no. For some years, *maybe*, as a last resort but no.
Like, yes, condoms are important and it's very likely that I'll die alone and chronically unfucked, but unlike my mother, I haven't completely given up on humanity and while no, I don't think I need someone romantically to be whole, love is nice, actually. And so is condom-less sex.
November 24, 2025 at 9:09 AM
Like, yes, condoms are important and it's very likely that I'll die alone and chronically unfucked, but unlike my mother, I haven't completely given up on humanity and while no, I don't think I need someone romantically to be whole, love is nice, actually. And so is condom-less sex.