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· May 1
I am very mentally ill on here, as a place to voice thoughts in a way that suits me. I may not mean what I say, it's a place to get it out.
Since you can't remove followers, I block those who follow me that I do not want viewing my posts.
Since you can't remove followers, I block those who follow me that I do not want viewing my posts.
you people are insufferable
January 30, 2026 at 5:24 PM
you people are insufferable
lord. everything feels like too much and overwhelming
January 25, 2026 at 2:15 AM
lord. everything feels like too much and overwhelming
I don't think I'm sleeping I feel like I'll be sick
January 21, 2026 at 2:59 AM
I don't think I'm sleeping I feel like I'll be sick
ex friends shouldn't really be airing your trauma and hurt online even if it's "vague posting" on a public account. that's not fair
January 21, 2026 at 2:12 AM
ex friends shouldn't really be airing your trauma and hurt online even if it's "vague posting" on a public account. that's not fair
i shoulld be able to kms, it owuuuld solve. things
January 21, 2026 at 1:58 AM
i shoulld be able to kms, it owuuuld solve. things
*guy who was punching his head on both sides when he was really upset* my head really fucking hurts
January 16, 2026 at 2:35 AM
*guy who was punching his head on both sides when he was really upset* my head really fucking hurts
i feel awful venting more but i stll feel fucking miserable ad nothingcan pull me out thisi stupid hole.
January 15, 2026 at 9:56 PM
i feel awful venting more but i stll feel fucking miserable ad nothingcan pull me out thisi stupid hole.
its a little scary readinng about accounts of ipv and drawing similarities between [*****]
January 13, 2026 at 4:56 PM
its a little scary readinng about accounts of ipv and drawing similarities between [*****]
wow. I love waking up because I'm bleeding it's almost as if I didn't predict this at all!!!!!
January 9, 2026 at 10:07 AM
wow. I love waking up because I'm bleeding it's almost as if I didn't predict this at all!!!!!
ont have the right size if I bleed through stuff I like I'm genuine going to (redacted)
January 9, 2026 at 2:48 AM
ont have the right size if I bleed through stuff I like I'm genuine going to (redacted)
I hate cramps and period ill kill everyone and myself
January 9, 2026 at 2:48 AM
I hate cramps and period ill kill everyone and myself
isn't it crazy it's been a little over a year since 🌊 did all that shit
January 6, 2026 at 3:00 PM
isn't it crazy it's been a little over a year since 🌊 did all that shit
being yelled at for arguing with other sister at nye is funny as fuck because it's not my fault my boundaries are constantly disregarded but whatever lol.
December 31, 2025 at 8:44 PM
being yelled at for arguing with other sister at nye is funny as fuck because it's not my fault my boundaries are constantly disregarded but whatever lol.
ruined gaming because i didnt like being called dumb lmaoo i just wanted to be treated nicely
December 28, 2025 at 5:52 PM
ruined gaming because i didnt like being called dumb lmaoo i just wanted to be treated nicely
it's been almost a year since 🌊 stuff happened and I think recently catching a friend up on everything made my emotions all big and sad over it
December 28, 2025 at 1:27 AM
it's been almost a year since 🌊 stuff happened and I think recently catching a friend up on everything made my emotions all big and sad over it
i feell awful but i got dinner with family soon so i cant think about that rn
December 23, 2025 at 6:18 PM
i feell awful but i got dinner with family soon so i cant think about that rn
almost 4am and I'm screaming crying throwing up about the future
December 10, 2025 at 3:50 AM
almost 4am and I'm screaming crying throwing up about the future
I can't sleep I'm like stressing that I'm going to fail and then get kicked out and then die
December 10, 2025 at 3:49 AM
I can't sleep I'm like stressing that I'm going to fail and then get kicked out and then die
you should be able to bakugo voice and tell people to take a swan dive off a roof
November 26, 2025 at 12:26 AM
you should be able to bakugo voice and tell people to take a swan dive off a roof
I got pissed off and chewed my lip raw
November 26, 2025 at 12:25 AM
I got pissed off and chewed my lip raw
stupid lump in mouth again
November 25, 2025 at 2:16 AM
stupid lump in mouth again
I feel scared to sleep because a lot of my dreams I keep trying to kms in them which sounds funny and is in part a manifestation of my mental state I suppose but last night was pretty bad
November 25, 2025 at 1:48 AM
I feel scared to sleep because a lot of my dreams I keep trying to kms in them which sounds funny and is in part a manifestation of my mental state I suppose but last night was pretty bad
can I be honest real quick. I'm joking about it when mentioning it but passing out at concert was scary I've never passed out before
November 20, 2025 at 12:06 AM
can I be honest real quick. I'm joking about it when mentioning it but passing out at concert was scary I've never passed out before
i fucke up everythign and i cant even do aythign right and i jsut fukc up all the fucking time i shykd fucking kill myself what useless fucking human am i if i cant even rememebr that i apparently preivously fucked up on this stufff too
November 17, 2025 at 2:55 PM
i fucke up everythign and i cant even do aythign right and i jsut fukc up all the fucking time i shykd fucking kill myself what useless fucking human am i if i cant even rememebr that i apparently preivously fucked up on this stufff too