similar to how roko's basilisk is just a recontextualized pascal's wager

it's funny how it can seem counterintuitive when taken in the abstract, without social and historical context

but we always had these concepts, we just had different ways of understanding them

this also works on a social level

if you're known for being greedy, people will be less generous with you because they know you will take as much as you can

thank you for talking with me, you helped keep me from spiraling

I hate time

it always moves faster than I need and slower than I would like

things always happen out of order, too

and honestly this goes for a lot of people in my life

such as my parents

I don't think I'm getting any better at this

I understood grief when I lost my sister

but this is different, because I can still talk to her

so there's still that small part of me hoping I can still fix it, keeping the wound open

I'm not sure that giving up on her completely is something I can do

she did warn me though

she warned me about everything, in excruciating detail

everything she would do, everything I would do, and others

to the point where I don't think there's a natural explanation

but I tried to fight fate anyway

because I'm just too goddamn stubborn

there's a thousand different things that I could say and none of them will change anything