it’s so humbling to be on the other side now.. looking down at myself and hating everything i see. i hated it before too but at least i looked the part of who i wanted to be. i never had to work much to maintain it. now i’m scared that when i do lose this weight it’s going to be constant maintenance

like my whole life up until 21 i weighed perfect in my eyes and nvr struggled with it… couldn’t gain anything ever.. then boom i quit ouid, started drinking way too much, and piled on 50 lbs like it was nothing. i’ve been disordered since abt 12 y/o but i never had to struggle to stay “perfect” :(

past 2 days binged an embarrassing amount.. how to break this cycle 🫩🫩 i ended up buying a yart but since i took so long of a tolerance break (6 months with only using 1-2 times a week, compared to constant everyday usage) my body is giving me the munchies instead RAHHH i need to get past this

ignore me reposting my intro tryna make more mutuals :D

~violet’s #lemonwatersky #caterpillarsky #⭐️ve #edsky #ventsky #drugsky intro~

⇢ she/her, 21, MDNI
⇢ stats in bio! :P
⇢ new to bluesky, came from twt
⇢ relapsed, but pro recov!
⇢ bp1, cptsd, adhd, ocd, substance abs
⇢ looking 4 new friends too!

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hellooo mooties i binged last night bc i had a really bad day at work and just wanted taco bell AND got my period 😭 back to the drawing board ts pmo

figured i’d hop on this too! DAY 1: my stats!! (cw: 140 lbs, gw: 95-100) trust i know i’m a whale 😭 credit to @dietcokez.bsky.social for the idea!

december we locking in gang.. i got a 2010’s themed club night i’m going to on nye and i need to look H O T

can’t wait to get back to my gw.. quitting ouid + binge eating + becoming an alcoholic did NOT do wonders for my body 🥀

only ate abt 700 ish cals today which goin from binging hella to this is a win in my book 😌😌

playing minecraft to distract myself from the gnawing voices to b1nge :P already had my breakfast (at 4 pm lmfao, insomniacore) but this is my first day rly trying to fast again after a while so if anyone has any tips pls do suggest :(

hey does anyone have any good apps for cal tracking? i used one a while ago but it’s all paid tiers now :(

~violet’s #lemonwatersky #caterpillarsky #⭐️ve #edsky #ventsky #drugsky intro~

⇢ she/her, 21, MDNI
⇢ stats in bio! :P
⇢ new to bluesky, came from twt
⇢ relapsed, but pro recov!
⇢ bp1, cptsd, adhd, ocd, substance abs

♡/↻ or reply for new mutuals! i’m active