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melancholic alien 👽
cw: 118.8 | gw: 110
melancholic alien 👽
cw: 118.8 | gw: 110
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sylvie ⋆˚꩜｡
@decay4ever.bsky.social
· Jan 1
⋆✴︎˚｡⋆ about me ⋆ ✶⋆.˚
they/them
prorecovery + not fatphobic!
⋆˚⟡｡ ednos
ospd (borderline, schizotypal) ⋆˙⟡
✧ ˖ ° depression & anxiety
𖡼𖤣𖥧𖡼𓋼𖤣𖥧𓋼𓍊
they/them
prorecovery + not fatphobic!
⋆˚⟡｡ ednos
ospd (borderline, schizotypal) ⋆˙⟡
✧ ˖ ° depression & anxiety
𖡼𖤣𖥧𖡼𓋼𖤣𖥧𓋼𓍊
i’m not going to be able to handle university, i don’t know what i’m going to do
February 17, 2026 at 11:26 PM
i’m not going to be able to handle university, i don’t know what i’m going to do
i talked to my mom about going back to the psychologist and she said i could! i have an appointment on friday
February 17, 2026 at 5:30 PM
i talked to my mom about going back to the psychologist and she said i could! i have an appointment on friday
i don’t feel good i’ve felt exhausted all day
February 17, 2026 at 1:19 AM
i don’t feel good i’ve felt exhausted all day
i got a 91 as my final grade for the class so whatever
she gave me a 70 😭 barely passed
i did my presentation! my prof said i talked too fast, looked at my notes too much, and my voice was too monotone. but i think she’s going to go easy on grading me at least
February 16, 2026 at 1:25 AM
i got a 91 as my final grade for the class so whatever
she gave me a 70 😭 barely passed
i did my presentation! my prof said i talked too fast, looked at my notes too much, and my voice was too monotone. but i think she’s going to go easy on grading me at least
February 12, 2026 at 8:17 PM
she gave me a 70 😭 barely passed
i did my presentation! my prof said i talked too fast, looked at my notes too much, and my voice was too monotone. but i think she’s going to go easy on grading me at least
February 12, 2026 at 6:59 PM
i did my presentation! my prof said i talked too fast, looked at my notes too much, and my voice was too monotone. but i think she’s going to go easy on grading me at least
i’m so scared for my presentation… i’m presenting it just to my teacher and i’m so nervous
February 12, 2026 at 1:58 AM
i’m so scared for my presentation… i’m presenting it just to my teacher and i’m so nervous
i have a presentation thursday, then an essay due friday, and two finals due friday. i’m so stressed.
February 10, 2026 at 11:03 PM
i have a presentation thursday, then an essay due friday, and two finals due friday. i’m so stressed.
part of me wants to try to talk to the little guys in my head but part of me thinks i’m making it all up and i’m actually just talking to myself
February 7, 2026 at 3:39 AM
part of me wants to try to talk to the little guys in my head but part of me thinks i’m making it all up and i’m actually just talking to myself
i have come to the conclusion that this voice feels invalidated and is trying to make up a reason i’m the way i am. it’s trying to find an explanation for why i’m struggling when in reality there isn’t one. i feel much calmer after figuring this out.
one of the little voices in my head keeps implying something traumatic happened to me as a child and i don’t remember it. it makes me feel very guilty to even entertain the thought. i think this voice is just trying to make up a reason i’m like this?
February 6, 2026 at 4:07 AM
i have come to the conclusion that this voice feels invalidated and is trying to make up a reason i’m the way i am. it’s trying to find an explanation for why i’m struggling when in reality there isn’t one. i feel much calmer after figuring this out.
panicking in IOP over a stupid little voice in my head what is happening
February 5, 2026 at 11:25 PM
panicking in IOP over a stupid little voice in my head what is happening
for whatever reason, what that voice in my head said made me very distressed and now i’m anxious
February 5, 2026 at 11:11 PM
for whatever reason, what that voice in my head said made me very distressed and now i’m anxious
one of the little voices in my head keeps implying something traumatic happened to me as a child and i don’t remember it. it makes me feel very guilty to even entertain the thought. i think this voice is just trying to make up a reason i’m like this?
February 5, 2026 at 10:40 PM
one of the little voices in my head keeps implying something traumatic happened to me as a child and i don’t remember it. it makes me feel very guilty to even entertain the thought. i think this voice is just trying to make up a reason i’m like this?
read about the 3pst31n f1les and then dissociated for a couple hours, still trying to recover from that
February 5, 2026 at 9:46 PM
read about the 3pst31n f1les and then dissociated for a couple hours, still trying to recover from that
woke up with a sore throat this morning so i guess i am sick, bf is sick too
i feel sick but i don’t have any physical symptoms besides feeling fuzzy and being slightly nauseous
February 2, 2026 at 7:29 PM
woke up with a sore throat this morning so i guess i am sick, bf is sick too
i feel sick but i don’t have any physical symptoms besides feeling fuzzy and being slightly nauseous
February 1, 2026 at 11:04 PM
i feel sick but i don’t have any physical symptoms besides feeling fuzzy and being slightly nauseous
i’m really scared my boyfriend is going to break up with me again, he’s been really distant all day
February 1, 2026 at 8:12 PM
i’m really scared my boyfriend is going to break up with me again, he’s been really distant all day
nevermind my mom said i don’t need another evaluation :(
i’m going to go back to the psychologist because my heart and gut are telling me there’s something else going on with me
February 1, 2026 at 3:58 AM
nevermind my mom said i don’t need another evaluation :(
i planned out the order of what i’m going to talk about. maybe it’s all just anxiety IDK
February 1, 2026 at 2:11 AM
i planned out the order of what i’m going to talk about. maybe it’s all just anxiety IDK
i’m going to go back to the psychologist because my heart and gut are telling me there’s something else going on with me
February 1, 2026 at 2:09 AM
i’m going to go back to the psychologist because my heart and gut are telling me there’s something else going on with me
i got a lot of work done yesterday but of course i lost all motivation today :/
January 30, 2026 at 8:05 PM
i got a lot of work done yesterday but of course i lost all motivation today :/
this is a sign that everything is going to be okay
January 28, 2026 at 3:33 AM
this is a sign that everything is going to be okay
i overate yesterday but it’s okay. i had avocado toast for breakfast this morning yum
January 26, 2026 at 4:01 PM
i overate yesterday but it’s okay. i had avocado toast for breakfast this morning yum
i love my boyfriend more than anything and i know we’re going to get through this
January 26, 2026 at 4:03 AM
i love my boyfriend more than anything and i know we’re going to get through this
i think my boyfriend has ocd, i want to help but i’m so fucking sick of him talking about my ex boyfriends’ d1cks ten times a day. i just don’t know what to do, he’s going to see a therapist but i can’t take this anymore.
January 25, 2026 at 11:35 PM
i think my boyfriend has ocd, i want to help but i’m so fucking sick of him talking about my ex boyfriends’ d1cks ten times a day. i just don’t know what to do, he’s going to see a therapist but i can’t take this anymore.