Sorry for the rant, for all my friends and family who are having a rough time, you can make it.. It going to be a hard and long road however just take it one set at a time... ♥️

I am thankfully out of that mind set at the moment, however this time of year hits extremely hard since it holds 5 bad trigger dates I will explain later.... Some people just fucking suck, how ever we keep going no matter how hard it hurts..

Mother f***** you have another thing coming and need a serious goddamn wake up call. Because unfortunately I got pushed so far that I nearly reached for the pills in front of me. Thankfully my stomach decided to try and vomit for 10 minutes before I could.

The even after explaining that I was in a negative mindset I was still the rude person according to them and they're going around telling people of how rude I was and that I offended them. B**** if I offended you because I was in a suicidal thought and you pushed it too far.

I said no touchy, and you would think people would respect that and just be like, 'Okay, no problem.' This person decided to go on a rant about how rude I was and that they were offended that I wouldn't let them. Unfortunately, that threw my mood so far into the neg that I broke part of my headset.

In this case I was in such a Negative headspace I was not allowing anybody to touch me hug me or anything I was vibing to my music drowning out the thoughts of ending myself. When they approached and tried to stroke my face I backed away very quickly and using my speech to text.

It was calming only sad thing is the creator dose not let you swim in the water... Had to use gogo loco to lower myself into it... If was able to swim my God's and the energy that flows I would have been happy.