Also after watching the bts explainer, the changes made from the source material made sense

I initially thought about doing it for this year but September is a fucking popular as hell wedding month in this region so most everyone is booked!

I also need to make a realistic workbook schedule because I'd love for this to happen in the next year in time for September/October!

Currently nailing down my big must have details and then I'm going to start connecting with vendors ✨️

It's totally chill though 😌 👌🏻 there's like Tiktok and like a new Superman movie and like a lot things to consume and be distracted by (as long as I'm spending money). But don't worry. It's all super duper chill 😎😌.

a busy busy schedule, the way nothing I seem to do is ever enough, the constant need to be perfect, the inherent worthlessness that shadows each step, and the immutable fact of consistent failure etc etc...this has all swirled into a sticky sticky sludge that's difficult to wade through.

So much contributes to this like the overall state of the world, colonization, genocide, government bs, cost of living, AI and art, regular depression, avoiding the ever present and imposing trauma, anxiety about work, anxious spirals about what other people think of me, the really really bad sad,