it has helped SO so much for us personally <3

i post this here because i don't have anywhere else to talk about whats going on internally so the handful of folks that just want to look at subpar pictures can ignore all of this okay? okay

the worst part so far is having all my passions fade away. i was so excited to get into ichthyology as a career and make my characters come to life in the form of numerous comic but i haven't cared about anything lately. can't remember the last time i've uttered the name Abtu anywhere

... is fulfilling enough for me to change my mind a little bit... and also because a friend paid for my registration and i don't want that to go to waste). don't really have much hope for my mental state being repairable atp though. i am happiest when i'm not present (i love weed for this reason)

... in the same way i'd be excited about a new piece of media i think hehe. unfortunately i can't really gush about my soon-to-be suicide to others because the reaction is usually a welfare check. sucks but what can you do! i'm waiting until sometime after an upcoming con at least to see if that ...

... half-baked and incomplete. everything tangible being shoved to the side in exchange for endless thoughts about Catching The Bus. my dream method is far too expensive for me but i have learned so many cheap methods that are a bit more risky but extremely accessible to me. i'm excited about it ,