Ok NOW I'm done with my life update... Ta daaa

If I'm gonna move I'll definitely be further away from work, so i wont be able to walk anymore, i can ask for rides and take the bus, and i would need to do thag anyway with winter on its way, but eventually i will likely need a car, unfortunately... So better to start the process sooner than later.

Anyway!!! Thats the update!!! Nothing has technically changed yet, but it will, hopefully soon! Until then i just have to not make any unnecessary purchases and make the most of the situation I'm in now. I will use it to my advantage in every way i can.
Ah.. i also need to get my drivers permit...

Phone plan until AFTER i have moved out, so i dont have to worry about that eating away at my savings while im trying to save up for this ... Might also do some stuff on the side for extra cash if i can, i havent had many hours lately, i have the time for it, so i might open comms or smth soon? Idk

Without a place when dad sells the house, so thankfully rent and utilities will be able to be divided up at least, and I'm going to save everything i can from now on to have as much of a cushion as i can while i still dont have many financial burdens, and i will not ask to be removed from the -

And its a lot... It's gonna be hard... And its gonna be stressful and scary... But I'm thankfully starting from an ok point money wise, I'm not totally broke and i have a check to cash currently and am working extra hours this week too, and I'll be moving in with my brother, who will also be stuck

Like... First is obviously moving out, thats the biggest thing, not being under his roof anymore is the most important way to get him off my back, but i also need to get off the phone plan, i need to make sure he isnt my emergency contact anymore, i need to pay all my own bills, stuff like that.

I've made that mistake many times before, it won't work on me again. I will not give him the benefit of the doubt anymore, i will be friendly and act like everything is normal until i can get tf outta here and cut every way I'm reliant on him off so he can't pull me back into his orbit again.

Like, i always knew my dad was a toxic person, but until recently i hadnt realized it was on purpose. I thought he was just kinda a mess and tended to be inconsiderate and stuff. But no he's been doing this shit on purpose this whole time. And i will not be lulled into trusting him again.

Be anywhere near the blast zone when they inevitably go off ... In fact i would honestly prefer to do everything i can to never have to see my father again, honestly. I've come to understand recently that everything. Everything has been intentional. He hs been emotionally abusing us the whole time.

Plus, the situation with my dad ever since he started dating this woman has become worse than ever, which is funny cus to someone who doesnt know my dad's games, he seems nicer than ever... But its all a manipulation, so... Yeah. Also they're absolutely both mentally unstable and i do not want to-

It’s the Passover lamb he’s showing his Jewish roots <3