ABDLjeffrey19 - Muscle man pushes a huge load in to the rear of his diaper

#pooppants #pantspoop #adultdiaper #diaperlover

I also think that’s why I was able to slip back into bedwetting as easily as I did once I committed myself to wearing every night.

On another note, I sleep so much better now that I wet the bed again. Because I wet the bed for so long as a kid, I think my brain subconsciously knew I should be diapered and wasn’t letting me enjoy a full restful sleep without protection.

I had to compromise in order to reach a point where compromise was no longer an option.

I guess the point of this long post is this: if you want to wet the bed, you have to commit. This is not a half-in-half-out deal. If you don’t want to have a choice, don’t give yourself a choice. At first, my brain wouldn’t let me wear every night, so I had to meet it halfway.

Eventually, I started relaxing more and more and began to wet myself diapers no matter whether I was at home or not. Since then I have started to have actual bedwetting experiences to the point where I legitimately am not comfortable sleeping without protection.

Doing all of this helped me get into the habit of wearing diapers every night. Overtime, I reached a point where I wore diapers every night, no matter what.

Even on nights where I just didn’t feel like wearing, I could convince myself to put one on because “they’re basically just thick underwear.”

Those diapers worked like a charm. I found that even if I didn’t want to wear a disposable diaper, I could convince myself to pull on a cloth diaper. If I didn’t fully use the diaper, I could just wash it and reuse it again. If I didn’t wet myself I could just put it on the next night.

I never pulled the trigger because the upfront cost is so much, but eventually I went ahead and ordered some from Threaded Armor.

Eventually, I found a compromise: cloth diapers. Cloth diapers have never really appealed to me. I grew up on disposables so that is what I’m drawn to. However, I found myself routinely drawn to some cloth diaper websites.

Because of that, I’d psych myself out and convince myself that I didn’t want to actually wet the bed. I’d take a break for a while only to end back up where I started.

This carried over into my post-grad life. I’d have nights where I knew I wasn’t going to fill my diaper to capacity so I wouldn’t wear one. There were also times where I just didn’t feel like wearing either due to staying somewhere else (like with a friend or family) so I’d skip out.

Even though I wanted to this, I struggled to commit. In college, I always planned my diaper-wearing ahead of time so that I could get as much enjoyment out of every single diaper that I could. If it wasn’t borderline leaking I considered it a waste of a diaper.

Out of college, I got a good paying job and began living on my own. I began keeping a steady supply of disposable diapers on hand. I even started wearing to bed most nights. I knew I wanted to start wetting the bed again - actually wetting the bed; no control - no choice.

In college, I bought my first pack of adult diapers (shoutout Tykables Overnights). Between being a broke college student and living with roommates, I never had a good opportunity to wear diapers to bed full time. I was too worried about being found out.

Even as a kid, I loved wetting the bed (which is probably why I went as long as I did). As soon as I was out of pull-ups at night I knew I wanted back in; however, I ignored those feelings for many years.