a pup or fur event ever again; no amount of FOMO will ever overcome that; but I still wish I could attend pride, but there's so many pups and furs dressed down and in kink gear

I don't know where else to go from now, I'm a wreck; I've been struggling with what feels like every part of my life since then. I obviously do not feel safe around pups and furries anymore, which is odd to say as I still count myself as one, I'm happily packing in any thought of visiting

with the first time in particular being Animalz in June 2019, where I was similarly body shamed, and then also followed online by a group of pups and furries who continued to body shame me and encouraged my worsening eating disorder; which obviously resulted in my Feb 2020 hospitalisation

I'm in a constant battle with that incident replaying in my head, and also knowing that if I slip back into anorexia again it would easily finish me off

What further compounds this is that this was my 2nd time out in public without a shirt, and my 2nd time being around large groups of pups

take an interest in me, he eventually hit me upside my head and went away.

This has particularly hurt as I have body dysmorphic disorder; having previously dealt with anorexia so severe I was hospitalised and briefly in an ICU in February 2020; my BDD is now worse than it has ever been

Someone, quite a bit bigger than me (I'm 6ft1) pushed me into a corner and started hitting me in the groin area, I tried push them off but they just got more rough and then started shouting and grabbing different parts of my body and comparing them to his, insinuating I should be grateful he'd

Whilst I can't take that image of myself out of people's minds, it would really help my wellbeing if I knew no more people would see me like that, and would greatly appreciate any help with that

being posted provided they do not come back to me and I don't see them, however Manc pride I was dressed in a way that in hindsight, I am very uncomfortable with; this has been causing me to have panic attacks and even vomiting at the stress of the thought of people seeing my body like that

Hey now! The 80s had cool vehicles, just don't ask
1) How fast does it go
2) How far does it go
3) What happens when it rains
4) How easy do regular car drivers see you
... and some other things

But look at it! It's just a vibe

Please don't send me in pics of myself

FINE!

Sorryyyyyy my phone was dead most of Sunday 😭