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@concaluit-astris.bsky.social
DNI unless i linked you here
Tw for ED, mild suicidal ideation and general mental health shit
Please don't reply if you follow me off of your main (ive unfollowed ppl whos accs arent alt accs)
Me needing one of these concerns me but oh well ;3
Tw for ED, mild suicidal ideation and general mental health shit
Please don't reply if you follow me off of your main (ive unfollowed ppl whos accs arent alt accs)
Me needing one of these concerns me but oh well ;3
my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me
February 13, 2026 at 11:27 AM
my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me my body is failing me
Also i have to take the meds at the same time daily meaning i now have to wake up at 9 am on weekends Just to take the meds and then i can finish sleeping
February 13, 2026 at 11:24 AM
Also i have to take the meds at the same time daily meaning i now have to wake up at 9 am on weekends Just to take the meds and then i can finish sleeping
Ugh great, another thing i have to deal with
February 13, 2026 at 11:24 AM
Ugh great, another thing i have to deal with
Update its probably not atrophy im stupid
Its also an entirely self inflicted issue
Its also an entirely self inflicted issue
Oh gods i am in so much pain
Simultaneously feel like i won't be able to fall asleep and like im about to faint from this
If this is from atrophy i really have to fucking get a move on starting the process to Deal With It
Simultaneously feel like i won't be able to fall asleep and like im about to faint from this
If this is from atrophy i really have to fucking get a move on starting the process to Deal With It
February 11, 2026 at 1:32 PM
Update its probably not atrophy im stupid
Its also an entirely self inflicted issue
Its also an entirely self inflicted issue
Oh gods i am in so much pain
Simultaneously feel like i won't be able to fall asleep and like im about to faint from this
If this is from atrophy i really have to fucking get a move on starting the process to Deal With It
Simultaneously feel like i won't be able to fall asleep and like im about to faint from this
If this is from atrophy i really have to fucking get a move on starting the process to Deal With It
February 11, 2026 at 3:44 AM
Oh gods i am in so much pain
Simultaneously feel like i won't be able to fall asleep and like im about to faint from this
If this is from atrophy i really have to fucking get a move on starting the process to Deal With It
Simultaneously feel like i won't be able to fall asleep and like im about to faint from this
If this is from atrophy i really have to fucking get a move on starting the process to Deal With It
Ughhh why is it that today, on bloodwork day, is it So Fucking Hard To Wake Up
I wanna sleep for a whole week
I wanna sleep for a whole week
February 6, 2026 at 8:32 AM
Ughhh why is it that today, on bloodwork day, is it So Fucking Hard To Wake Up
I wanna sleep for a whole week
I wanna sleep for a whole week
So
I definitely Do Not want to do topical E for atrophy id rather die, which leaves me with 2 options
Hysterectomy+vaginectomy meaning recovering from surgery again
Or ignore it and hope it doesn't cause anything serious
I definitely Do Not want to do topical E for atrophy id rather die, which leaves me with 2 options
Hysterectomy+vaginectomy meaning recovering from surgery again
Or ignore it and hope it doesn't cause anything serious
January 22, 2026 at 12:13 PM
So
I definitely Do Not want to do topical E for atrophy id rather die, which leaves me with 2 options
Hysterectomy+vaginectomy meaning recovering from surgery again
Or ignore it and hope it doesn't cause anything serious
I definitely Do Not want to do topical E for atrophy id rather die, which leaves me with 2 options
Hysterectomy+vaginectomy meaning recovering from surgery again
Or ignore it and hope it doesn't cause anything serious
OH GODS i know exactly what triggered this relapse actually and now this feels humiliating what do you MEAN that is what got me
January 22, 2026 at 11:34 AM
OH GODS i know exactly what triggered this relapse actually and now this feels humiliating what do you MEAN that is what got me
Yeah im, pretty sure im going through atrophy at this point
Eugh
I mean, i Could mention it at my next hrt appointment but, i also just don't want to
Eugh
I mean, i Could mention it at my next hrt appointment but, i also just don't want to
January 22, 2026 at 8:12 AM
Yeah im, pretty sure im going through atrophy at this point
Eugh
I mean, i Could mention it at my next hrt appointment but, i also just don't want to
Eugh
I mean, i Could mention it at my next hrt appointment but, i also just don't want to
Im back in the fucking building again
January 21, 2026 at 4:57 PM
Im back in the fucking building again
Oh i think im going to kill someone over this (hospital is asking me to oay the bill i ALREADY PAID)
January 21, 2026 at 4:12 PM
Oh i think im going to kill someone over this (hospital is asking me to oay the bill i ALREADY PAID)
I am So Close to downloading mfр again and counting cаls
January 21, 2026 at 2:26 PM
I am So Close to downloading mfр again and counting cаls
Ill get back to working out and actually plan out my food intake properly instead of mindlessly restricting bc that does fuck all
January 21, 2026 at 1:48 PM
Ill get back to working out and actually plan out my food intake properly instead of mindlessly restricting bc that does fuck all
Mmmm what if i actually try getting to my visual goal this time tho
Idec abt the number on the scаle i just want to look Like That, pls, i need to
Idec abt the number on the scаle i just want to look Like That, pls, i need to
January 21, 2026 at 1:46 PM
Mmmm what if i actually try getting to my visual goal this time tho
Idec abt the number on the scаle i just want to look Like That, pls, i need to
Idec abt the number on the scаle i just want to look Like That, pls, i need to
Ooooh i could have instant soup instead of what i was planning for lunch, fuck yeah
January 14, 2026 at 12:31 PM
Ooooh i could have instant soup instead of what i was planning for lunch, fuck yeah
Who would've thought, making myself go outside while not having eaten all day is hard
January 13, 2026 at 2:08 PM
Who would've thought, making myself go outside while not having eaten all day is hard
Im so hungry
I cant wait till ive gone to the store and am back home again and am allowed to eat
I cant wait till ive gone to the store and am back home again and am allowed to eat
January 13, 2026 at 1:18 PM
Im so hungry
I cant wait till ive gone to the store and am back home again and am allowed to eat
I cant wait till ive gone to the store and am back home again and am allowed to eat
Would eating fix my nausea and headache? Probably
But I'm not allowed to eat for a few more hours so oh well
But I'm not allowed to eat for a few more hours so oh well
January 13, 2026 at 11:29 AM
Would eating fix my nausea and headache? Probably
But I'm not allowed to eat for a few more hours so oh well
But I'm not allowed to eat for a few more hours so oh well
Im definitely going to die due to lacking health huh
Because between the damn near guaranteed heart attack or stroke, my eating disorder and fact that i will avoid getting treatment if something specific starts happening, things aren't exactly looking good
Because between the damn near guaranteed heart attack or stroke, my eating disorder and fact that i will avoid getting treatment if something specific starts happening, things aren't exactly looking good
January 13, 2026 at 9:13 AM
Im definitely going to die due to lacking health huh
Because between the damn near guaranteed heart attack or stroke, my eating disorder and fact that i will avoid getting treatment if something specific starts happening, things aren't exactly looking good
Because between the damn near guaranteed heart attack or stroke, my eating disorder and fact that i will avoid getting treatment if something specific starts happening, things aren't exactly looking good
Rly hoping my mom wont notice that im restricting again oh gods i do not want to make her worry
January 13, 2026 at 8:45 AM
Rly hoping my mom wont notice that im restricting again oh gods i do not want to make her worry
This will kill me once i start living alone wont it
January 12, 2026 at 1:42 PM
This will kill me once i start living alone wont it
Cant fucking believe im relapsing again what is wrong with me
January 12, 2026 at 12:36 PM
Cant fucking believe im relapsing again what is wrong with me
Im so hungry
I just have to hold out a bit more and then i can eat its fine im fine
I just have to hold out a bit more and then i can eat its fine im fine
January 12, 2026 at 12:34 PM
Im so hungry
I just have to hold out a bit more and then i can eat its fine im fine
I just have to hold out a bit more and then i can eat its fine im fine
I already generally felt so incredibly rejected from my own culture but the new law and ppls response to it just makes all that worse
Im not welcome
And i wont be safe if i ever visit
So i cant
And that hurts, so so much
Im not welcome
And i wont be safe if i ever visit
So i cant
And that hurts, so so much
January 6, 2026 at 9:35 AM
I already generally felt so incredibly rejected from my own culture but the new law and ppls response to it just makes all that worse
Im not welcome
And i wont be safe if i ever visit
So i cant
And that hurts, so so much
Im not welcome
And i wont be safe if i ever visit
So i cant
And that hurts, so so much
Bottom dysphoria is going to kill me dead but i also could Not handle recovering from phalloplasty so thats off the table and i just, dont want metoidioplasty so ill just suffer i guess
December 30, 2025 at 1:00 PM
Bottom dysphoria is going to kill me dead but i also could Not handle recovering from phalloplasty so thats off the table and i just, dont want metoidioplasty so ill just suffer i guess