lmao they removed my quote fair enough

fighting game where theres actually only 1 playable character lmao

though for fucks sake i need my paper it's been 2 fuckin weeks

it's crazy what a professional and identity-safe environment can lead a bad bitch like myself to do (they just asked the right questions at the right times with the respect a human deserves and i fought myself to not say "nope!")

oh yeah on that note i may have sorta kinda like . scheduled a therapy appointment (sorta)

so like. dunno. im sure medicine can Fix Me Though

it's less a "I would like to die" and more a "I would like to exist in a manner where I have no responsibilities, no negative impact on the world. A completely passive observer that can still see and do whatever they want."

the thing is i don't actually ever want to kill myself, I don't want to die in any way whatsoever really. but there are some days that im just so overwhelmed by my thoughts and by the world where i just wish i could become a ghost

and i just looked at her with a tired angry face and she literally just said "don't look at me like i just told you to kill yourself."

i dunno i think about how earlier this week i was lying in bed looking at all the snow and literally said to myself "if i wake up tomorrow and the first thing i hear is my mom telling to shovel the snow im gonna [...]" and then she said exactly that the moment she greeted me next morning

part two!

holy fork happy friggin birthday