Damn those are AMAZING 😩💙💙💙

Regardless, I'm really looking forward to getting my fluorite dice (YES I FINALLY GOT THEM AFTER SO MANY YEARS 😭💙💙💙) and my Seasons Set of Pub Goblin dice (which I'm ALREADY making sure I have money on hand for the Key Keepers and Helpers Set for October 2nd 🤩)

I also kinda like that it felt like reading a plot point graph, you know? There's something about that very tactile, graphical, cohesive feel that's REALLY satisfying. The mat also helps with getting more precise AND deeper answers based on where the dice lands in relation to each other and when/how

Also quicker than tarot, which I REALLY like! Like some tarot readings can be something I read and reflect on for over a week. Here? It's great for a quick detailed answer, no bullshit. Kinda like what I've heard of Lenormand readings, but even less bullshit - or at least less for me!

Also, I just think this could be fun far as maybe making my own dice as a way to practice carving and shaping gemstone

I honestly may not even need to do this, but I'm figuring it out for now to decide if I just wanna get a regular astrology dice set vs something more custom and complicated

Basically I'd use this, in my case, as a replacement of the alchemy dice potentially

But I'm basically figuring out what all the Publishing Goblin dice covers, then using that to determine what major or minor asteroids to incorporate

I think it could be useful for me...but also I just like d20s 😂

Usually, at least in astrology dice sets, they have the basic 9 planets (don't start please 😂), north node, south node, and the moon on d12 dice

And I've wanted a set of astrology dice for years now, so it would be better to stick to that for a regular set

But...what if I expanded it to a d20?

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I'm not sure if there's a hell, but I'm sure whatever the equivalent is in reality is exactly where he went.

That ritual was the only time I had my guides and ancestors practically scream at me for even trying anything. Like the total refusal, the just hungry endless rage there? Shit legit had me shaking. It was so overwhelming, I immediately took down the ritual. Couldn't risk it and won't fit him!

I couldn't give a shit about his apology or whatever to me: I avoided the man, literally, since birth and felt nada for him but disgust. But my dad's side of the fam still had so much ego and expectation wrapped up in him, so I hoped I could push him for SOMETHING for them. They deserved that much.

And, when I say hated him, I would openly greet other people in my family - my other grandpa included - and deliberately ignore him or only give him very, very cold hellos. I had no respect for him and refused to give him a shred of deference until he repaired the evil shit he did to my fam.

As for the ritual mentioned: I knew my grandpa was gonna bust hell wide open with the way he lived, and that's on him, but I was hoping I could like magically influence him to reflect and AT LEAST give his kids the apology and understanding that they wanted. Personally, I hated him since I was born.

it's one of the only times I get it so much: when someone or something particularly awful is about to die or end. There's a card for the personification of death in this deck, and I could've and should've pulled that, but I didn't. I only seem to get this card when it's about awful people going out.

cousin down with him for saying one of his friends sexually abused her, was an addict who gleefully enabled his kids addictions for his own benefit, like...I can go on, in all honesty. I can keep going for some replies. But you should get the gist.

So I associate this card with death atp cause-

Dude also neglected his kids, struggled with addiction his whole life, acted predatory+entitled to his kid's partners, scapegoated one of his kids when he groomed and impregnated a teenager one of my also too old uncles was "dating", tried to get our entire fam - me included - to shout down my-

I probably wrote something on my other account about my grandpa once, but I'm not willing to dig for it rn. The TL;DR is that he was physically, emotionally, and sexually abusive to my grandma, his kids, and pretty much all his partners. My dad is struggled with trauma from that his whole life.

If he goes out with the eclipse, I'm gonna SCREAM

Definitely checks out on the going out soon thing: major rapid weight loss is one of those big early signs of death/disease, especially for the elderly

They also just start eating/drinking less, making it worse tbh

Dude had an entire entourage behind him like he couldn't move without them