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struggling with species dysphoria. please dm main for tips. please. if you have any I beg you.
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struggling with species dysphoria. please dm main for tips. please. if you have any I beg you.
i almost did it again
January 20, 2026 at 3:25 AM
i almost did it again
i cant keep going on like this.
January 17, 2026 at 7:22 AM
i cant keep going on like this.
i kept thinking about killing myself. specifically with a shotgun. all day.
January 17, 2026 at 4:16 AM
i kept thinking about killing myself. specifically with a shotgun. all day.
i ended up cutting myself.
no blood. but.
it still happened.
i hate this
no blood. but.
it still happened.
i hate this
January 17, 2026 at 4:00 AM
i ended up cutting myself.
no blood. but.
it still happened.
i hate this
no blood. but.
it still happened.
i hate this
can i get one day? one day without her finding the smallest thing to get angry at me for?
January 16, 2026 at 1:18 PM
can i get one day? one day without her finding the smallest thing to get angry at me for?
i feel like they don't even give a damn about my mental health any more.
they just see me as something that's broken.
something that needs fixed.
no matter the measures.
they just see me as something that's broken.
something that needs fixed.
no matter the measures.
January 15, 2026 at 4:00 AM
i feel like they don't even give a damn about my mental health any more.
they just see me as something that's broken.
something that needs fixed.
no matter the measures.
they just see me as something that's broken.
something that needs fixed.
no matter the measures.
whenever i say anything to her she either gets all snippy with me or just mumbles at a volume where I can just barely hear her and it's pissing me off
if I did that I would be gone.
if I did that I would be gone.
istg my step mom is a fucking brick wall
she talked about wanting to hit me before btw but that was years ago and she hasn't done it again thankfully. won't ever forget though.
she talked about wanting to hit me before btw but that was years ago and she hasn't done it again thankfully. won't ever forget though.
January 13, 2026 at 7:59 PM
whenever i say anything to her she either gets all snippy with me or just mumbles at a volume where I can just barely hear her and it's pissing me off
if I did that I would be gone.
if I did that I would be gone.
i just want to cry.
January 8, 2026 at 12:20 PM
i just want to cry.
its been three days since break ended and im already spiraling from the stress
January 7, 2026 at 9:23 PM
its been three days since break ended and im already spiraling from the stress
But at the same time I don't.
January 7, 2026 at 8:35 PM
But at the same time I don't.
But I want to.
January 7, 2026 at 8:09 PM
But I want to.
im not gonna hurt myself. too scared to do that.
January 7, 2026 at 1:46 AM
im not gonna hurt myself. too scared to do that.
pain feels good and i don't like that
January 7, 2026 at 1:41 AM
pain feels good and i don't like that
Now I see why my brother left as fast as he did.
January 7, 2026 at 1:13 AM
Now I see why my brother left as fast as he did.
istg my step mom is a fucking brick wall
she talked about wanting to hit me before btw but that was years ago and she hasn't done it again thankfully. won't ever forget though.
she talked about wanting to hit me before btw but that was years ago and she hasn't done it again thankfully. won't ever forget though.
January 7, 2026 at 1:05 AM
istg my step mom is a fucking brick wall
she talked about wanting to hit me before btw but that was years ago and she hasn't done it again thankfully. won't ever forget though.
she talked about wanting to hit me before btw but that was years ago and she hasn't done it again thankfully. won't ever forget though.
somewhat spiraling
January 7, 2026 at 1:01 AM
somewhat spiraling
She'll call me a jackass and yet when I point out the cause of me being a jackass (her jackassery) she blows up at me
January 7, 2026 at 12:50 AM
She'll call me a jackass and yet when I point out the cause of me being a jackass (her jackassery) she blows up at me
My mind feels so cluttered. Can barely keep a coherent thought. Can barely stay on task.
January 6, 2026 at 4:36 AM
My mind feels so cluttered. Can barely keep a coherent thought. Can barely stay on task.
First day back to school from Winter break and I'm already inches away from breaking mentally
January 6, 2026 at 12:28 AM
First day back to school from Winter break and I'm already inches away from breaking mentally
my step mom got mad at me for eating A PIECE OF FUCKING GINGERBREAD i kid you not
January 5, 2026 at 9:44 PM
my step mom got mad at me for eating A PIECE OF FUCKING GINGERBREAD i kid you not
i hate being the only child in my house.
Nobody else for my parents to yell at but me.
Nobody else for my parents to yell at but me.
January 2, 2026 at 2:01 AM
i hate being the only child in my house.
Nobody else for my parents to yell at but me.
Nobody else for my parents to yell at but me.
I hurt him.
why?
for my own selfish reasons?
why?
for my own selfish reasons?
December 31, 2025 at 8:02 AM
I hurt him.
why?
for my own selfish reasons?
why?
for my own selfish reasons?
okay turns out this was linked to how the day went before hand (I just wanted comforted by a certain someone) but I still feel that things are better when I'm talking to her
okay. serious shit.
I think I'm addicted to affection. Any time I'm not talking to Flare just feels dull. Doing literally anything else just doesn't bring me as much joy. Without her I feel like shit.
I think I'm too dependent on her. I don't know how to fix this.
I think I'm addicted to affection. Any time I'm not talking to Flare just feels dull. Doing literally anything else just doesn't bring me as much joy. Without her I feel like shit.
I think I'm too dependent on her. I don't know how to fix this.
December 26, 2025 at 9:40 PM
okay turns out this was linked to how the day went before hand (I just wanted comforted by a certain someone) but I still feel that things are better when I'm talking to her
okay. serious shit.
I think I'm addicted to affection. Any time I'm not talking to Flare just feels dull. Doing literally anything else just doesn't bring me as much joy. Without her I feel like shit.
I think I'm too dependent on her. I don't know how to fix this.
I think I'm addicted to affection. Any time I'm not talking to Flare just feels dull. Doing literally anything else just doesn't bring me as much joy. Without her I feel like shit.
I think I'm too dependent on her. I don't know how to fix this.
December 26, 2025 at 4:57 AM
okay. serious shit.
I think I'm addicted to affection. Any time I'm not talking to Flare just feels dull. Doing literally anything else just doesn't bring me as much joy. Without her I feel like shit.
I think I'm too dependent on her. I don't know how to fix this.
I think I'm addicted to affection. Any time I'm not talking to Flare just feels dull. Doing literally anything else just doesn't bring me as much joy. Without her I feel like shit.
I think I'm too dependent on her. I don't know how to fix this.
ugh, I have to go back to my dad's house Sunday. I don't want to go though. He's so fucking strict.
December 26, 2025 at 4:40 AM
ugh, I have to go back to my dad's house Sunday. I don't want to go though. He's so fucking strict.