Updated my profile photo to a more natural look (apart from the hair obvs)
November 16, 2025 at 12:38 PM
Updated my profile photo to a more natural look (apart from the hair obvs)
Transgender awareness week.
I am aware.
I am aware.
November 15, 2025 at 6:31 PM
Transgender awareness week.
I am aware.
I am aware.
Happy for one day yesterday, then back to depression about having a brain that doesn't match my body.
I want to post happy stuff, but am just so, so tired of everything.
I want to post happy stuff, but am just so, so tired of everything.
November 14, 2025 at 5:45 PM
Happy for one day yesterday, then back to depression about having a brain that doesn't match my body.
I want to post happy stuff, but am just so, so tired of everything.
I want to post happy stuff, but am just so, so tired of everything.
HRT 9 weeks...
No change in emotions
Sore nipples
Tiredness
Slightly tingling mouth
No change in emotions
Sore nipples
Tiredness
Slightly tingling mouth
November 12, 2025 at 8:07 PM
HRT 9 weeks...
No change in emotions
Sore nipples
Tiredness
Slightly tingling mouth
No change in emotions
Sore nipples
Tiredness
Slightly tingling mouth
Did something today to try and lift my mood
November 7, 2025 at 10:20 PM
Did something today to try and lift my mood
It's oddly jarring seeing everyone going about their lives normally when you're in a bleak place and questioning everything.
No energy left
No energy left
November 6, 2025 at 6:58 PM
It's oddly jarring seeing everyone going about their lives normally when you're in a bleak place and questioning everything.
No energy left
No energy left
I've had enough - work is stressful, I'm too bald, hrt isn't helping depression - I'm just deluding myself that any of this will improve.
November 5, 2025 at 5:34 PM
I've had enough - work is stressful, I'm too bald, hrt isn't helping depression - I'm just deluding myself that any of this will improve.
Did anyone else have really supportive friends who said 'people should be able to live how they want', only for them to go really quiet when you start hrt?
November 4, 2025 at 7:07 AM
Did anyone else have really supportive friends who said 'people should be able to live how they want', only for them to go really quiet when you start hrt?
Thought I'd been feeling light-headed for a few weeks...
Blood pressure of 105 over 63 might explain it
Blood pressure of 105 over 63 might explain it
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November 3, 2025 at 9:26 PM
Thought I'd been feeling light-headed for a few weeks...
Blood pressure of 105 over 63 might explain it
Blood pressure of 105 over 63 might explain it
I want to turn the clock back 8 years and just pretend none of this shit happened.
My parents would still be alive, my health would be better, and I could convince myself that occasionally dressing up would be enough.
I appreciate this is a crossroads point, but life shouldn't be this hard!!
My parents would still be alive, my health would be better, and I could convince myself that occasionally dressing up would be enough.
I appreciate this is a crossroads point, but life shouldn't be this hard!!
November 3, 2025 at 6:37 PM
I want to turn the clock back 8 years and just pretend none of this shit happened.
My parents would still be alive, my health would be better, and I could convince myself that occasionally dressing up would be enough.
I appreciate this is a crossroads point, but life shouldn't be this hard!!
My parents would still be alive, my health would be better, and I could convince myself that occasionally dressing up would be enough.
I appreciate this is a crossroads point, but life shouldn't be this hard!!
Still not getting the 'this just feels right' feeling from hrt.
It doesn't feel wrong, but maybe not right enough to carry on with it.
Shame, was hoping for happiness
It doesn't feel wrong, but maybe not right enough to carry on with it.
Shame, was hoping for happiness
October 28, 2025 at 3:54 AM
Still not getting the 'this just feels right' feeling from hrt.
It doesn't feel wrong, but maybe not right enough to carry on with it.
Shame, was hoping for happiness
It doesn't feel wrong, but maybe not right enough to carry on with it.
Shame, was hoping for happiness
Sorry for doom posting lately.
Went to an LGBTQ paint and sip event and took an amazing ally with me. It was nice
Went to an LGBTQ paint and sip event and took an amazing ally with me. It was nice
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October 25, 2025 at 8:32 PM
Sorry for doom posting lately.
Went to an LGBTQ paint and sip event and took an amazing ally with me. It was nice
Went to an LGBTQ paint and sip event and took an amazing ally with me. It was nice
Highlight of today will be falling asleep in the bath. I miss dissociating
October 23, 2025 at 5:11 PM
Highlight of today will be falling asleep in the bath. I miss dissociating
So... happiness was fleeting again.
6 weeks in and still randomly getting the crushing feeling that I should just stop everything.
Why is this so hard!?
6 weeks in and still randomly getting the crushing feeling that I should just stop everything.
Why is this so hard!?
October 22, 2025 at 5:26 PM
So... happiness was fleeting again.
6 weeks in and still randomly getting the crushing feeling that I should just stop everything.
Why is this so hard!?
6 weeks in and still randomly getting the crushing feeling that I should just stop everything.
Why is this so hard!?
Never particularly wanted pierced ears, but seeing Christmas earrings today I thought they'd be cool. Odd
October 21, 2025 at 7:26 PM
Never particularly wanted pierced ears, but seeing Christmas earrings today I thought they'd be cool. Odd
So, as someone who's not totally out at work, but definitely not 'in' either... would a red dress be too much for a Christmas meal?
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October 20, 2025 at 8:17 PM
So, as someone who's not totally out at work, but definitely not 'in' either... would a red dress be too much for a Christmas meal?
A question for the trans ladies...
When picking a name, was it one you always liked or did you find a name just suited your upgrade part way through transitioning?
When picking a name, was it one you always liked or did you find a name just suited your upgrade part way through transitioning?
October 20, 2025 at 6:54 PM
A question for the trans ladies...
When picking a name, was it one you always liked or did you find a name just suited your upgrade part way through transitioning?
When picking a name, was it one you always liked or did you find a name just suited your upgrade part way through transitioning?
6 weeks on hrt. Chest is a bit sensitive, but not really noticed much else. When do emotions kick in? 😊
October 20, 2025 at 6:43 PM
6 weeks on hrt. Chest is a bit sensitive, but not really noticed much else. When do emotions kick in? 😊
In a bit of a better place now, so looking ahead. I know timings vary, but trying to think of nice things.
So... how long were you on hrt before you noticed facial changes?
So... how long were you on hrt before you noticed facial changes?
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October 19, 2025 at 9:41 PM
In a bit of a better place now, so looking ahead. I know timings vary, but trying to think of nice things.
So... how long were you on hrt before you noticed facial changes?
So... how long were you on hrt before you noticed facial changes?
So, after burning-out and not feeling any happier on hrt, I had decided I'd stop this week.
Ever late to the party, I feel slightly better today, but b👀bs are starting.
So it's a game of chicken now to see if I feel better enough to stick on hrt before they reach the point of no return.
Ever late to the party, I feel slightly better today, but b👀bs are starting.
So it's a game of chicken now to see if I feel better enough to stick on hrt before they reach the point of no return.
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October 13, 2025 at 4:56 PM
So, after burning-out and not feeling any happier on hrt, I had decided I'd stop this week.
Ever late to the party, I feel slightly better today, but b👀bs are starting.
So it's a game of chicken now to see if I feel better enough to stick on hrt before they reach the point of no return.
Ever late to the party, I feel slightly better today, but b👀bs are starting.
So it's a game of chicken now to see if I feel better enough to stick on hrt before they reach the point of no return.
It sucks that I would have to put credit card details into dodgy software to access my DMs (stupid UK), so if I've not replied to anyone it's because I can't access DMs
October 12, 2025 at 6:36 PM
It sucks that I would have to put credit card details into dodgy software to access my DMs (stupid UK), so if I've not replied to anyone it's because I can't access DMs
So... picked world mental health day to get to the point where I'm giving up. Transitioning with my face/lack of hair, in this hostile climate is beyond me. I don't have a plan B yet.
October 10, 2025 at 3:48 PM
So... picked world mental health day to get to the point where I'm giving up. Transitioning with my face/lack of hair, in this hostile climate is beyond me. I don't have a plan B yet.
I'm done with everything. Life shouldn't be this hard
October 6, 2025 at 3:14 PM
I'm done with everything. Life shouldn't be this hard
Hibernation seems like a good option - a few months off from everything
October 2, 2025 at 4:52 PM
Hibernation seems like a good option - a few months off from everything
After the initial happiness subsided, if I don't feel more calm or happier nearly a month into hrt, that's not a good sign is it?
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October 1, 2025 at 6:42 PM
After the initial happiness subsided, if I don't feel more calm or happier nearly a month into hrt, that's not a good sign is it?