Like, what more do you want? I've made so many strides for myself in the last few years and one thing just holds me back so, SO fucking much. That stupid, god damn passport. I wish I had money to just immigrate permanently but that's not going to appear out of thin air.

You know it's bad when your own father says "Hey, sweetie? It's not safe for you to come home." What else needs to be said? It's draining. I can't look at any news cycles because it affects my mental health, and I just have to bury existential dread I've had for years.

Fun game, definitely shows its age for sure. The game was designed for a GameCube controller that has notches on the joystick + more fine control than a JoyCon, which is why I don't try to give too much shit about controls these days >.>

This ban is so brain dead, it doesn't exactly work great, as someone who's in Aus part-time.

3 options: credit card, face scan (bypassed with a fucking Woolies paper bag), or ID scan.

And the company facilitating it, KWS, makes it feel like a form of censorship under guise of "for the kids".

I gotta get one too, fun times.

Hopefully you can get to the bottom of it

I give it at least another month or two before I gotta do another form to fix this shit

I hope everything will be okay.

thank you for this, it's so bloody obnoxious and on top of that, kind of painful for my over-sensitive ears.

I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE

This ramble only happened because my self image is so warped I have ideals that are physically not possible, unless some deity in the universe decides to grant it to me in my sleep somehow, which I will keep hoping.

For now, that's it. I'm tired, might go take a nap. Have a nice day.

Finally, make myself not hate my voice. Could change it, etc. Just model it off of someone I like, I guess, that I'd not mind having, or just make me like my current one.

Silly stuff.

The other thing that somewhat coincides with the last one (due to recent health developments) is just keeping my weight below 60kg. It'd be super, super nice to be that small. Now note that my own body standards aren't normal, but eh. It is what it is.

Let me wear size 8 (aus) clothes ffs.

Fix my absurd sex organs/hormones is the next one. Everything's just weird, relating to disorders of sex development I have. I just want to be your normal, every day woman. Nothing crazy. It'd be nice to have kids one day, maybe, when things are better.

Going by those basics, let's get a bit more in-depth: body sizings.

I'd drop my height from 169cm down to 156-160cm. A bit smaller, but also could fit in smaller spaces. I'd also reduce my chest size a bit, just would prefer something smaller with better bra options and less back pain, ffs.

Next, eye colour. Make it grey. Something about that combo seems comfortable and gentle, at least to my eyes. Gentle gaze, calm expression.

Firstly, hair. I'd change the consistency, but also make it naturally black. I have a dark brown hair colour already but black just feels more.. right, I guess? I could dye it, but don't want to damage my hair. It's also a bit of work given I'm growing it out for the first time in almost 10 years.