omg ty for this ❤️

everyone like “take deep breaths! go on walks! not working? try it again!” i’m like “mmm no actually i’m just gonna keep drinking water with electrolytes and buying clothes”

so then all i have left is to just vent to nobody on social

nobody is listening, nobody cares, nobody has a solution, but if i give up, ppl are like “don’t give up!“ i just don’t know what i’m supposed to do

same thing with my physical health: my body is failing, i ask the internet for help, it tells me to tell a doctor, and the dr says i’m fine

but even more than that—if i try to say anything about how this apparent ONE solution to my problems just doesn’t make sense, then i’m just met with “it’s bc you’re not doing it right” “it’s bc you’re not doing it enough” “it’s bc you don’t believe in it” i’m so tired

and then if i do make a C then it’s like… well ok now what… this sucks for my gpa… does it even matter that i passed if i did so horribly

i know all of this stems from me not thinking i’m worth anything but also if that’s at the expense of the literal one person in the world who i love then like why in the world would i have the motivation to do that

single moms who have a lot of social and financial support annoy me SO much, they’re always trying to join us about the struggle when they have it literally the easiest

bmi is apparently not a real, accurate thing but it is real in that doctors/medical professionals/insurance companies still use it to determine diagnoses and treatments and such so it kinda still does matter i feel like