I do think it would be more fun to do it with people around. Get someone else's eyes on some of the drawings as a last hurrah. But also some of that shit is emo AF LOL

Like I took a sketchbook yesterday, ripped the wire out, and saved only 4 pages from it.

It's easier to do with older books but the new ones are full of bangers and I'm like "okay but 2/3 of this is good I gotta keep it together I GUESS

My bro is getting married the first weekend of December tho (flying home for a few days) and that's like, the last of it and then I can get back into making art and enjoying my free time again 😭

Rnow tho I have one million thanksgiving plans and also I have to get my stupid suit tailored in time

Sometimes I miss production (less responsibility) but I'd rather deal with people than machines if I'm being honest 😂

We're upping my ssri and hoping it doesn't make me manic. Fingers crossed

Also realizing that like, depressive episodes every 2-3 months for years is maybe not good. It's just so much better than it was before (2-3 weeks out of every month) and I can handle it a lot better knowing it'll pass.

It being cyclical is weird tho

Update it's 3am and I'm Getting Strange

I had to listen to Elliot Smith to cope all day while running errands in a haze and also am contemplating watching Lake Mungo again so outlook is grim.

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Like cognitively I'm fine but the last 24 hours I have felt like a raw nerve. Little things I can usually handle feel huge and painful. It's sucky :<