i haven't posted on here in 8 months long time no see

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i never really talk about regressing on here especially since it's so personal but like yk . yeah. idk, tired

i never feel safe regressing anymore. i hate that my ex was my caretaker bc now whenever i get so stressed that my headspace starts to slip i have to cling to things that force me back into reality all while jst. sobbing 👍it's really disheartening esp since littlespace used to be so peaceful for me

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congrats!!

delusion of the highest order is devouring me from the inside out i'm going to die with nothing but regrets

i still love him but im so mad at him that i just can't bring myself to talkto him . idk.

i think the only reason i'm less severely insane about it is because i know that it's just me being sick now and that it's not inherently tied to anything else. i am just severely ill with an unknown ailment 👍 it causes me severe anxiety and cognitive decline but fuck it we ball

i keep typing me instead of my what if i just blew myself up