And I was told this is a move insurance companies are making across the board... federally...

Ours is through my SOs work... Cigna... but issue is they've just told me, after weeks of trying to get them to move their asses with the prior auth, that next year they will not cover chemical or physical gender affirming care. Thanks to their foot dragging a December surgery is unlikely.

I let myself get hope that I wouldn't have to... live with this anymore. I have support, people who love me, and I know there's still options to chase but... I don't want to live with this anymore after letting myself dream... I... just... can't. And why? Why is it so bad?

I have therapist and doctor support, backed by current day science and psychology, saying T and top surgery are ok and valid and will help me not throw myself off a bridge... that it's medical care. So why? Why do I need to keep these tumors just for someone elses comfort? Their sick satisfaction?

Plus the ASCP is a bunch of bullshit. NOT a union but I'm paying them dues WHY?! When said hospital was hiring uncertified techs anyways? And over my certified coworkers who were trying for a better position as well? *deep breath*

... it's a THC night I think. 🎱👄🎱

And I LIKED labwork but hospital labs are SO toxic and that's almost all we have in the US. Research lab was better but histo is such a small community that everyone knows everyone and everyone is a catty bitch. That environment right after retail hell just messed me up good.

Lol yeah that's exactly the issue. If I had a counselor worth anything they would have sat me down and had me look for what jobs I WANTED and then looked at what those jobs were looking for in experience/degrees/certs. By the time I figured that out it was the crash and NOBODY was getting a job.

I suppose change "realize" to "admit" cause that was honestly part of what that first crashout was about...

There was a whole "fighting fate" theme going on and the turn of the millenium and before... sucked for queerness in general.

*Had to fight the college to get the certification after they closed it before my last semester
*MORE debt, but get a job...
*Good job?
*Grueling job, toxic coworkers
*Get pregnart, get PPA, get meds, Covid, realize I'm trans, crashout...
*... Aaaaart? I make the art for people, yes? *jazz hands*

*finish BA in archeology cause I'm stubborn and berate myself for daring to question fate
*Graduate right into the '07/'08 crash
*no jobs, depression, debt, no health insurance...
*Retail, corpo meetings about how many trillions they make while I cant go to a clinic
*Get histology certification...

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