it was horid, also needed a phone number. which i didnt have

there's ways around it >_>

can easily get VDJ free if you sail the seven seas, i can send you a good sea shanty to sing, same one i've been using for almost two years.

WHY MIXXX
you traitor >_>
and now you dont have these sick colour rules to tell you if you're in key with a glace

ahh, yea makes more sense to me like that.
and it didnt sound silly, simply misinterpreted it. the english language isnt the clearest at times lol

weekends are just another day for me considering i dont have work or school TwT
i need obligations to be happy ;-;
idk i might be reading that wrong, very mentally exhausted

this is exactly what i needed today, hopefully i can get some sleep before this though.
been up a ungodly amount of time TwT

someday™

need to find a way to break the cycle, but i know ill never try. been saying this for almost a year and i've never tried to do anything about it, i barely have the motivation to get out of bed in the morning, or drink water, eat food, clean my room.

im fucking miserable, every day feels the same as the last, filling my life with meaningless distractions to just try and pass the time as fast as possible. i look at the calendar one moment, and the next its fucking February, what happened to December? where the fuck it go, i dont even remember it.

i miss complaining that i always had too much work, and now i feel like im losing my purpose here, losing communities i once held dear, friends, etc.

i take on work at every opportunity but i rarely enjoy it like i used to.

now all i do is rot away watching yt shorts or playing pavlov all day.

i need to sleep but i feel too shit to sleep, been up almost 24 hours and every time i lay down i just get depressed.

i've lost the steam that i once had when i first joined the VRCDJ scene, and now everything feels different.

though i can still *rarely* enjoy myself.

dream house setup

im locking in but im locked out Twt