Sexually competent dirtbag
@bearycuddle.bsky.social
Part time pup, part time top, full time slut.
Leftist, queer, enby, and I'm posting explicit content. Be over 18 or be blocked.
Leftist, queer, enby, and I'm posting explicit content. Be over 18 or be blocked.
It's done. His stuff is gone. I think I'm gonna pause the sad posting now. I don't think I'll stop missing him, but it's getting less painful. I really want to call him, just say goodbye and such. We never really had that. I will respect his choice though, I owe him that much.
February 1, 2026 at 1:15 AM
It's done. His stuff is gone. I think I'm gonna pause the sad posting now. I don't think I'll stop missing him, but it's getting less painful. I really want to call him, just say goodbye and such. We never really had that. I will respect his choice though, I owe him that much.
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i wanna get bred in the stable again 😩
January 31, 2026 at 10:54 PM
i wanna get bred in the stable again 😩
I've changed so much since we got together. I used to feel so much more vibrantly. I used to go out,used to do dumb shit at all hours, we'd spend hours just driving, blasting music. mental illness really feels like it's slowly making me into a golem. Working, but soulless and cold. I miss warmth.
January 31, 2026 at 7:43 AM
I've changed so much since we got together. I used to feel so much more vibrantly. I used to go out,used to do dumb shit at all hours, we'd spend hours just driving, blasting music. mental illness really feels like it's slowly making me into a golem. Working, but soulless and cold. I miss warmth.
It's so odd being the problem in your relationship but your brain still tries to convince you you're a victim. Yes, I'm hurting, but I pushed him away with my actions, so I have no room to feel like he's at fault. I'm so excited for therapy Monday.
January 31, 2026 at 7:36 AM
It's so odd being the problem in your relationship but your brain still tries to convince you you're a victim. Yes, I'm hurting, but I pushed him away with my actions, so I have no room to feel like he's at fault. I'm so excited for therapy Monday.
He's getting his stuff tomorrow, and I can't sleep. I know why he needs to go, I'm just hurting knowing that all the little reminders of him will be gone from my life soon. I know I'm the one who failed our relationship .I hope he can heal and thrive, I just wish I hadn't thrown my chance away.
January 31, 2026 at 7:23 AM
He's getting his stuff tomorrow, and I can't sleep. I know why he needs to go, I'm just hurting knowing that all the little reminders of him will be gone from my life soon. I know I'm the one who failed our relationship .I hope he can heal and thrive, I just wish I hadn't thrown my chance away.
The feelings are so bittersweet right now. Thankful for what I was given, distraught that someone I loved so deeply is no longer in my life, and somehow still feeling other things. Brains are weird.
January 30, 2026 at 5:50 AM
The feelings are so bittersweet right now. Thankful for what I was given, distraught that someone I loved so deeply is no longer in my life, and somehow still feeling other things. Brains are weird.
I feel thankful that he stuck by me for so long. He supported me so lovingly in so many ways. I'm realizing he spent years caring for someone who was originally supposed to be his rock. His struggles didn't stop when mine started, I just focused on mine to his detriment. I know he cared fiercely.
January 30, 2026 at 5:48 AM
I feel thankful that he stuck by me for so long. He supported me so lovingly in so many ways. I'm realizing he spent years caring for someone who was originally supposed to be his rock. His struggles didn't stop when mine started, I just focused on mine to his detriment. I know he cared fiercely.
It's not reasonable to expect anyone to stay unhappy forever. I hate that I was blind to how badly I was failing him. I wish he could have told me how bad it was for him. I regret that he didn't feel like he could tell me. I wish I had closure, but maybe understanding is helping a bit.
January 30, 2026 at 5:41 AM
It's not reasonable to expect anyone to stay unhappy forever. I hate that I was blind to how badly I was failing him. I wish he could have told me how bad it was for him. I regret that he didn't feel like he could tell me. I wish I had closure, but maybe understanding is helping a bit.
I think the realization that needs have just changed over the years we've been together is helping. My needs have increased due to several outside issues, and I can't expect someone to be happy when our dynamic changed so drastically. I wasn't meeting his needs anymore, but I was blind to it.
January 30, 2026 at 5:38 AM
I think the realization that needs have just changed over the years we've been together is helping. My needs have increased due to several outside issues, and I can't expect someone to be happy when our dynamic changed so drastically. I wasn't meeting his needs anymore, but I was blind to it.
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Staff at a Twin Cities yarn store put together a pattern for a red knit “Melt the ICE” hat inspired by the Norwegian resistance.
They thought they would attract 10 people to a weekly knit-along.
They’ve sold 70,000 copies, raising more than $250k for immigrant aid groups.
They thought they would attract 10 people to a weekly knit-along.
They’ve sold 70,000 copies, raising more than $250k for immigrant aid groups.
‘Rage knitting’ against the machine: the hobbyists putting anti-ICE messages into crafts
Makers take a stand through ‘Melt the ICE’ red knit caps and sparkly nails – all while raising funds for those affected by immigration raids
www.theguardian.com
January 29, 2026 at 1:43 PM
Staff at a Twin Cities yarn store put together a pattern for a red knit “Melt the ICE” hat inspired by the Norwegian resistance.
They thought they would attract 10 people to a weekly knit-along.
They’ve sold 70,000 copies, raising more than $250k for immigrant aid groups.
They thought they would attract 10 people to a weekly knit-along.
They’ve sold 70,000 copies, raising more than $250k for immigrant aid groups.
Sent the risky text last night. I just want him to miss me like I miss him, but I know that's just not realistic. I miss him so goddamn much rn I just dont feel like i can keep this up. I miss feeling alive.
January 29, 2026 at 3:02 PM
Sent the risky text last night. I just want him to miss me like I miss him, but I know that's just not realistic. I miss him so goddamn much rn I just dont feel like i can keep this up. I miss feeling alive.
I don't think I've lost anyone I've had this sort of connection with before. I've grieved my parents, and a sibling, and this is somehow more intense rn. I feel so crazy feeling this way about a boy.
January 28, 2026 at 8:50 PM
I don't think I've lost anyone I've had this sort of connection with before. I've grieved my parents, and a sibling, and this is somehow more intense rn. I feel so crazy feeling this way about a boy.
I hate having this overwhelming urge to comfort someone who I know is in pain, but I know inserting myself into his life right now would only hurt more. Feeling so helpless is odd at times. I am so used to being someone with a plan to fix it all 🫠
January 28, 2026 at 6:19 AM
I hate having this overwhelming urge to comfort someone who I know is in pain, but I know inserting myself into his life right now would only hurt more. Feeling so helpless is odd at times. I am so used to being someone with a plan to fix it all 🫠
I feel like im constantly in a state of " oh hes just gonna come home from work soon.... oh wait. ". Like. Five years of life habits just do not go away quickly. I am so autistic, I just cant find my new life pattern. I keep expecting a sound at the front door like im a fucking dog.
January 27, 2026 at 9:43 PM
I feel like im constantly in a state of " oh hes just gonna come home from work soon.... oh wait. ". Like. Five years of life habits just do not go away quickly. I am so autistic, I just cant find my new life pattern. I keep expecting a sound at the front door like im a fucking dog.
Going through all the photos I can find of him, I will never regret the smut we made together, but i feel like I need to delete it all, and I am so heartbroken that I took so few photos that were just us existing and being happy. I wish I had something besides my memories to document this journy.
January 27, 2026 at 9:26 PM
Going through all the photos I can find of him, I will never regret the smut we made together, but i feel like I need to delete it all, and I am so heartbroken that I took so few photos that were just us existing and being happy. I wish I had something besides my memories to document this journy.
Any tips on getting life together after you have a manic depressive episode, run off the love of your life and then fail to commit suicide? I start lithium this week, and I got a therapist scheduled, IDK what else to even do. I just stare at the wall all day and regret right now.
January 27, 2026 at 8:47 PM
Any tips on getting life together after you have a manic depressive episode, run off the love of your life and then fail to commit suicide? I start lithium this week, and I got a therapist scheduled, IDK what else to even do. I just stare at the wall all day and regret right now.
I will be using this as a bit of a journal for a minute, had a life altering breakup (TM) and i think this might be a good way for me to get thoughts out. Sorry for the downposting, yall feel free to unfollow as needed🖤
January 27, 2026 at 8:42 PM
I will be using this as a bit of a journal for a minute, had a life altering breakup (TM) and i think this might be a good way for me to get thoughts out. Sorry for the downposting, yall feel free to unfollow as needed🖤
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If you can’t trust these people to *checks notes* look at “art” before they put it on a shirt, you can’t trust that the things they sell are safe for your body.
January 12, 2026 at 4:38 AM
If you can’t trust these people to *checks notes* look at “art” before they put it on a shirt, you can’t trust that the things they sell are safe for your body.
Slightly diminish a game:
Pokemon Gray and Beige
Pokemon Gray and Beige
Slightly Diminish a game:
Assassin's Mission Statement
Assassin's Mission Statement
Slightly diminish a game
Fire emblem: Path of dimness
Fire emblem: Path of dimness
January 11, 2026 at 5:31 PM
Slightly diminish a game:
Pokemon Gray and Beige
Pokemon Gray and Beige
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All the presents have been delivered! Another successful Christmas! 🎄🎄🎄🎄
Time for some some of Santa’s Green Holly Jolly
Those cookies and milk really took their toll
Time for some some of Santa’s Green Holly Jolly
Those cookies and milk really took their toll
December 26, 2025 at 8:28 PM
All the presents have been delivered! Another successful Christmas! 🎄🎄🎄🎄
Time for some some of Santa’s Green Holly Jolly
Those cookies and milk really took their toll
Time for some some of Santa’s Green Holly Jolly
Those cookies and milk really took their toll
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Due to inflation, Santa's outsourced to the elves this year. You now have to show me in person how naughty or nice you are.
Either way you're getting your stocking stuffed 🎄🎀🎄
Either way you're getting your stocking stuffed 🎄🎀🎄
December 24, 2025 at 4:50 PM
Due to inflation, Santa's outsourced to the elves this year. You now have to show me in person how naughty or nice you are.
Either way you're getting your stocking stuffed 🎄🎀🎄
Either way you're getting your stocking stuffed 🎄🎀🎄
I wanna go to bear night, but I don't wanna play nice with the jackholes wearing a fucking iron cross.
December 20, 2025 at 5:36 AM
I wanna go to bear night, but I don't wanna play nice with the jackholes wearing a fucking iron cross.
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It’s important to have r a n g e. 💦
December 15, 2025 at 6:28 AM
It’s important to have r a n g e. 💦