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Thank you!! 💛💛

Don't forget to get ur state-mandated Orange Trauma Donut from ur local Timothy Hortons™️

Besides the few events that actually feel like community healing and not just more labour we have to perform.... but even just getting to and from those events is so daunting it often doesn't even feel worth it

I found this incredible, teeny tiny fossil of a fish's fin today, though. It's not all bad. There is so much beauty.

I know it helps if I share more and more details about how shit my life is, but I'm just so exhausted. Just know that things are so fucked, I made a psychiatrist cry by sharing just one (1) single event that happened to me. So trust it's hard as hell, and I'm doing the best I can.

The medical stuff alone has been non-stop, painful, slow, and I've learned I have a chronic degenerative soft tissue disorder. I find out in a couple weeks if I need surgery. I'm trying so hard to keep fuckin going but.... like. How??! People like me aren't supposed to, but I WANT to so badly

I'm so determined to persist!!!! But it's getting so fucking hard. This year has met me with so many tragedies. I've lost so many loved ones. I would love to rest someday. I don't see that happening in my future, but the idea is nice anyways

I'm short on rent for this upcoming month, and my phone is 🤏🏼 this close to breaking, which will cut me off from all sources of income (besides my disability assistance). I spent the last two days basically sleeping. If anyone can help, I could really use it. Mîkwêc.

PayPal.me/beadsagainstfascism

It rained a bunch yesterday for the first time in over a month— turns out it was a gory fish fest at the water 😅 it was definitely eerie though, big time

I've seen turkey vultures gather in numbers before, but only once, and about half as many. It was around a railroad track, so I called them because there was definitely something Big and Dead on the tracks. They called me back a bit later; it was a fatass raccoon eeeee RIP 😅

I hope to be back to beads in my fullest capacity soon!! Thank yous all for bearing with me!! It's been an honestly pretty brutal time, but I can see a lil light at the end of the tunnel ✨️ Ki ci mîkwêc for sticking around through all this ❣️

2. I am absolutely still doing beadwork!! ❤️‍🔥
There were large periods of time where it wasn't possible for me to do for a while, but I'm doing all my physio stuff to keep my tendons and ligaments healthy, and I conveniently broke my non-dominant wrist 😅

All this to say:
1. If you paid and you're still waiting for your red umbrella beadwork, it's still coming your way, and I am SO sorry for the massive delay!!

If you hadn't paid yet but were in line, I'm so sorry, but I need to take a break from these for a little while ❤️‍🩹

I decided that I'll be finishing the orders for folks who have already paid (I have 3 pins left to do), and then I'll be taking a break from the red umbrellas for a time. My apologies to those who wanted to make an order— I hope to pick it back up at a later date.

I got, obviously, majorly delayed on this fundraiser— world and life things altered drastically not long after I started the fundraiser, and I then had a series of health issues and injuries that have made it inexcusably slow.

Thank you 💛💛

Thank you 💕