I couldn't remember if I ever had a nicknames for him and he said that I used to call him Stoner McBoner hahahaha That makes sense. I used to be so funny and have a lot of fun! The nightmare of the past 5 years really drained it out of me but I hope I can get it back

If I didn't swear I'd have no strength at all

I've been surrounded by assholes for so much in my life.

I hope I have a good time tomorrow visiting Mike.
I hope he has a good time. I hope we can spend time together and that it is fun for us.

Or else I'll just be alone again

Clearly it is me that is the fool.
I am so bad at Life. Tasks. Figuring out how to put furniture in a room. Every goddamn thing. It so fucking embarrassing.
I fucking hate being autistic. Christ I'm dumb. Now I'm thinking about times in the past and just now realizing I was being ridiculed. Ugh

Very excited to report that I had numerous prolonged interactions today with people who DO want to think! And enjoy it! CONVERSATION!!! I feel good. I wish I could do that everyday for at least 4 hours.

Wow, the horror. Completely shut out of an industry that … promoted him to senior reporter by 40