That was meant to say 'devotion'... damn lack of edit button...

Not sure what I did to deserve such decision but thank you so much

Trying to stay alive and away from the States up in Canada, every little bit helps

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I should look up who that is, thank you. Considering I'm in a big city I'd like to think that shouldn't be hard to work out, I'd hope.

Does he have to keep re-upping his visitor record or is he allowed to stay because of the wait? No one's given a straight answer here and I never thought to ask anyone that's also in the process... a very silly thing to not do until now, considering.

Thank you for being so diligent in trying to get me help. I've seen every one and you've been amazing helping fight for me. Before I forget and am possibly gone, I wanted you to know how much I appreciate you. Thanks Alsvid, you're proof maybe there's hope for humanity out there.

Thank you very much, I appreciate that. ❤️

My visitor record runs out on 12/31, I've applied for an extension siting my proof of citizenship but haven't heard back. I'm just terrified to be deported but I don't see many options if they force me back to the States. Hopefully Service Canada can help?

So I guess I'm writing this in the hopes that at least a few people out there will remember me, should the worst case scenario come to pass.

I realize I don't matter much in the world but I'd like to think I did ok to at least give a few laughs and brighten a day even for a few seconds to y'all.

I haven't been on here because of how worn down and beat up I am fighting all this.

I'm very very tired.

I'm trying to make peace with the fact that might be in a camp for the rest of my life, as short as it'll be, because of stupid bureaucracy and I can't. I can't make peace with that ending.

It's not a request for money or MA, I'm just frustrated and sad and despondant. I'm not ready to die, not for a country I despise and am embarassed to be a citizen of just because it's where I was born.

I'm just not ready to go. There's so much more to say and write and do.

I'm not ready. 2/?

The damn nerve pain is rough, she's a bitch that doesn't go down easy

Unlike me who goes down very easy 😁

God forbid women have ONE hobby...

Better now but wracking my brains on how to get to 100%. I'm scared to leave my bed save for the restroom for fear of fucking it up again 😅

Ambulance came and hit me with an injection and recommended a clinic or the ER so now we wait, but at least I'm lying down on a bed?