in some settings i will simply say i have DID to avoid explaining this further because people will understand when i do that. but i feel bad for doing so when i'm undiagnosed haha.........

regardless, this is the main reason for my inactivity. i'm clearly unwell so i don't want to stream like this.

it's really strange. i have people in my head but it's always been chalked up to being due to my schizoaffective disorder when in clinical settings, but my friends around me always said it sounds dissociative 🥹 i don't know what to believe...

i just don't feel like "myself." sometimes i don't know who "i" am. i see messages "i" didn't send, art i don't remember drawing, selfies that barely look like me...

in the past, during one of the times when i was hospitalized, i did bring it up because i had an episode during my stay, and they said it was likely but unable to be diagnosed in a short timespan... makes sense

i'm not a fan of self-dx when it comes to myself for the most part. for others i don't really care lol... i'm going to bring up some things when i see my mental healthcare providers next. but it is kind of beginning to scare me

i'm missing nearly a week of memory this time around. it could be part of my psychotic features, but it seems more like a dissociative disorder from things i'm finding after being lucid again.

trying out reverting back to my old way of stylizing faces... i feel my art was more individualistic back then ;__;

i'm trying to stay hydrated right now and i just ate because the migraine made me barely able to eat yesterday... i'm happy it's easing up ;__;

thank you!!! i'll get through it as always even if it sucks 😭 it's easing up now after medicine but i'm going to take it easy!

and for the migraine, i'm unable to be medicated for my chronic migraine syndrome due to interactions with my other prescriptions so i also take over the counter headache relief that has caffeine in it 🥹

over the counter antivert/antiemetic medication, lying down and hoping for the best