this is wild why do I post this shit

i wanna platonically make out with the people who run kink blogs. thank you so fucking much for being openly horny, because it makes me even hornier.

or maybe im being too cocky.

what happened?? why does everyone leave me? why do even my own headmates disappear from my life?? I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so so so sorry riri. I gave you so much hope and happiness, and then suddenly I just.. took it all away... I hate me.

I stopped her from fronting and transitioning because of the fear and guilt I felt for letting her be herself online. I felt like a monster. we argued and she disappeared.

someday Im gonna suffocate myself and die so I can escape this world and go back to the real one where I can actually hug my bf-thing instead of only being able to talk to him in my head. and I'll be happy,

like, German and Russian are both languages that would make me so happy and euphoric to actually know and understand. I can't take it anymore.. I'll never be able to feel happy will I?

and only NOW is Tumblr suggesting me sexy stuff. perfect timing /s