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@alienval.bsky.social
vent alt for Zoë, Nova, Artemis, Crystal, Faye, Luna, Link, Toriel and NOT the entity because we don’t like it
DO NOT INTERACT if you aren’t already moots with @qwazor.co.uk
likes and replies are fine but no reposts please
following on main is also fine
DO NOT INTERACT if you aren’t already moots with @qwazor.co.uk
likes and replies are fine but no reposts please
following on main is also fine
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@alienval.bsky.social
· Sep 17
ok, new rules for this account:
- no reposts or quotes without our permission (= block)
- liking is fine, but avoid mass liking please. there are things here that i don’t want to be reminded of.
- interacting on main is also fine but i’d prefer if you used an alt
- no reposts or quotes without our permission (= block)
- liking is fine, but avoid mass liking please. there are things here that i don’t want to be reminded of.
- interacting on main is also fine but i’d prefer if you used an alt
why am i like this? i point out a possible reason why people might not like me as much but now i don’t want to do anything about it. i don’t feel like talking to loads of people. when i do, it feels like copy and paste and that makes me worried.
do i not interact with people enough? is it that i’m not as interested in the same things as most of my oomfs so i rarely have any conversations with anyone except a select few people?
am i boring?
am i boring?
i know i shouldn’t compare myself to others but… compared to others it feels like a lot less people care about me
but now i feel bad for saying that because i don’t want anyone to feel like they have to pander to me
but now i feel bad for saying that because i don’t want anyone to feel like they have to pander to me
December 20, 2025 at 10:19 PM
why am i like this? i point out a possible reason why people might not like me as much but now i don’t want to do anything about it. i don’t feel like talking to loads of people. when i do, it feels like copy and paste and that makes me worried.
to be clear, this isn’t targeted towards anyone in particular
i know i shouldn’t compare myself to others but… compared to others it feels like a lot less people care about me
but now i feel bad for saying that because i don’t want anyone to feel like they have to pander to me
but now i feel bad for saying that because i don’t want anyone to feel like they have to pander to me
December 20, 2025 at 10:10 PM
to be clear, this isn’t targeted towards anyone in particular
do i not interact with people enough? is it that i’m not as interested in the same things as most of my oomfs so i rarely have any conversations with anyone except a select few people?
am i boring?
am i boring?
i know i shouldn’t compare myself to others but… compared to others it feels like a lot less people care about me
but now i feel bad for saying that because i don’t want anyone to feel like they have to pander to me
but now i feel bad for saying that because i don’t want anyone to feel like they have to pander to me
December 20, 2025 at 10:03 PM
do i not interact with people enough? is it that i’m not as interested in the same things as most of my oomfs so i rarely have any conversations with anyone except a select few people?
am i boring?
am i boring?
i know i shouldn’t compare myself to others but… compared to others it feels like a lot less people care about me
but now i feel bad for saying that because i don’t want anyone to feel like they have to pander to me
but now i feel bad for saying that because i don’t want anyone to feel like they have to pander to me
December 20, 2025 at 9:52 PM
i know i shouldn’t compare myself to others but… compared to others it feels like a lot less people care about me
but now i feel bad for saying that because i don’t want anyone to feel like they have to pander to me
but now i feel bad for saying that because i don’t want anyone to feel like they have to pander to me
if i really am a system, why can’t i remember any part of it existing this year? except maybe crystal who has probably existed in some form or another since… idk when but probably my early childhood
December 20, 2025 at 8:26 PM
if i really am a system, why can’t i remember any part of it existing this year? except maybe crystal who has probably existed in some form or another since… idk when but probably my early childhood
i have experience of seeing how fast cancer can deteriorate a person. one week my dad could walk on his own, the next week he was bedridden. the week after that he went into a hospice and didn’t even last until the weekend
it feels like she could’ve lived a lot longer… but would she have been happy? she can’t get better. the longer she lives, the worse she’ll get, the more she’ll suffer
probably not gonna be okay in a week
December 20, 2025 at 7:54 PM
i have experience of seeing how fast cancer can deteriorate a person. one week my dad could walk on his own, the next week he was bedridden. the week after that he went into a hospice and didn’t even last until the weekend
it feels like she could’ve lived a lot longer… but would she have been happy? she can’t get better. the longer she lives, the worse she’ll get, the more she’ll suffer
probably not gonna be okay in a week
December 20, 2025 at 7:48 PM
it feels like she could’ve lived a lot longer… but would she have been happy? she can’t get better. the longer she lives, the worse she’ll get, the more she’ll suffer
probably not gonna be okay in a week
December 20, 2025 at 7:41 PM
probably not gonna be okay in a week
another possible sign of autism i can remember is when i was on a school trip to a railway centre and the guy working there was about to pull the lever to switch the tracks when he came up to me and warned me that there was gonna be a loud bang in a bit
December 17, 2025 at 2:28 PM
another possible sign of autism i can remember is when i was on a school trip to a railway centre and the guy working there was about to pull the lever to switch the tracks when he came up to me and warned me that there was gonna be a loud bang in a bit
as a kid i used to think i was either a robot or an alien because it felt like i didn’t know how to behave like a normal human whereas it came naturally to others and i’d be observing and copying people a lot of the time
December 17, 2025 at 1:56 PM
as a kid i used to think i was either a robot or an alien because it felt like i didn’t know how to behave like a normal human whereas it came naturally to others and i’d be observing and copying people a lot of the time
do you ever say or do something impulsively that you didn’t mean, and even though it didn’t offend anyone you can’t stop thinking about it and feeling awful?
December 16, 2025 at 8:14 PM
do you ever say or do something impulsively that you didn’t mean, and even though it didn’t offend anyone you can’t stop thinking about it and feeling awful?
is it weird to think that me and nova might be the manifestations of our ADHD and autism respectively?
December 12, 2025 at 11:32 PM
is it weird to think that me and nova might be the manifestations of our ADHD and autism respectively?
we booked it. 12:40 27th of December. i’m gonna miss you, Bella
December 12, 2025 at 4:38 PM
we booked it. 12:40 27th of December. i’m gonna miss you, Bella
i feel better now 🌌
December 7, 2025 at 12:38 AM
i feel better now 🌌
I wish it wasn't so hard to tell who's fronting sometimes
December 6, 2025 at 11:47 PM
I wish it wasn't so hard to tell who's fronting sometimes
can someone please switch so i can stop thinking about this...
i'm thinking about this again. so when we were younger, out of, i guess morbid curiosity, we used to look at nsfl (g*re) on reddit. idk if it was an attempt to become desensitised or whatever, but it's quite possible that it just traumatised me.
needless to say we don't do that anymore
needless to say we don't do that anymore
once again trying to search our memories for possible sources of trauma to justify us being plural. might've found something but not sure if this is what caused plurality
December 6, 2025 at 11:31 PM
can someone please switch so i can stop thinking about this...
i'm thinking about this again. so when we were younger, out of, i guess morbid curiosity, we used to look at nsfl (g*re) on reddit. idk if it was an attempt to become desensitised or whatever, but it's quite possible that it just traumatised me.
needless to say we don't do that anymore
needless to say we don't do that anymore
once again trying to search our memories for possible sources of trauma to justify us being plural. might've found something but not sure if this is what caused plurality
December 6, 2025 at 11:21 PM
i'm thinking about this again. so when we were younger, out of, i guess morbid curiosity, we used to look at nsfl (g*re) on reddit. idk if it was an attempt to become desensitised or whatever, but it's quite possible that it just traumatised me.
needless to say we don't do that anymore
needless to say we don't do that anymore
if we make you uncomfortable please tell us. we won’t know how to improve if we don’t know what we did
December 5, 2025 at 2:26 AM
if we make you uncomfortable please tell us. we won’t know how to improve if we don’t know what we did
once again trying to search our memories for possible sources of trauma to justify us being plural. might've found something but not sure if this is what caused plurality
December 3, 2025 at 10:40 PM
once again trying to search our memories for possible sources of trauma to justify us being plural. might've found something but not sure if this is what caused plurality
i hate it when i accidentally like a post with the wrong account and then i have to quickly unlike it and hope the other person didn’t see it
December 2, 2025 at 9:39 PM
i hate it when i accidentally like a post with the wrong account and then i have to quickly unlike it and hope the other person didn’t see it
when i was typing this i realised this sounds like what a lot of autistic people describe. i might just be autistic
ok that's fair. i get that but also it's sometimes like all sounds are unignorable and i get overwhelmed by too many sounds at once
November 27, 2025 at 12:34 AM
when i was typing this i realised this sounds like what a lot of autistic people describe. i might just be autistic
for some reason i get spooked a lot easier when im fronting on my own. i guess when zoe's here i feel safer. she's like my older sister in a way
November 27, 2025 at 12:06 AM
for some reason i get spooked a lot easier when im fronting on my own. i guess when zoe's here i feel safer. she's like my older sister in a way
do you ever start writing a vent about how you’re a waste of oxygen etc. but then you realise you don’t give enough of a fuck to post it but then you’re sat there reiterating that to yourself?
November 25, 2025 at 1:59 AM
do you ever start writing a vent about how you’re a waste of oxygen etc. but then you realise you don’t give enough of a fuck to post it but then you’re sat there reiterating that to yourself?
update: nothing’s happening immediately but the vet agreed with my mum that it should be sooner rather than later, so potentially in the next few weeks
my mum is taking our dog to the vet today. she’s been having diarrhoea apparently for no reason (other than probably the tumour). if her quality of life is deteriorating with no way of making it better then we have no other choice…
November 24, 2025 at 7:48 PM
update: nothing’s happening immediately but the vet agreed with my mum that it should be sooner rather than later, so potentially in the next few weeks
my mum is taking our dog to the vet today. she’s been having diarrhoea apparently for no reason (other than probably the tumour). if her quality of life is deteriorating with no way of making it better then we have no other choice…
November 24, 2025 at 2:32 PM
my mum is taking our dog to the vet today. she’s been having diarrhoea apparently for no reason (other than probably the tumour). if her quality of life is deteriorating with no way of making it better then we have no other choice…