Yea thatbwas a fucking bar. Imma need to repeat that to myself over and over and then stand on that. When what we want doesn't match what we need <<<<<

And i guess the last thing is it def feels like ur last post but it's like... she never answers the question, she'll leave me on read and then respond when the conversation shifts and thats the answer clearly but then stop treating me like ur bf in private wtf 😂

But like this struck me weirdly cus like I've never had a "fight" that feels like a relationship fight with any of my women friends and I have had a handful. And now it's just this tension where she'll just give me attention for particular moments but then just goes silent outta nowhere. Hot & cold

So that's where it gets tricky. I set a boundary and tried to talk about it and I was really polite and calm and worded things right.. this led to a fight and her blocking me lol she comes back like a week, maybe two weeks later and she's like "I overreacted" & we both apologized

Lmao that's the exact problem. Cus if I leave im making a problem out of not getting my way and ultimately that's childish. But also it cus she crosses that line when she wants to and then teases the what could be. I feel like the horse chasing the carrot 😔

And its like okay u keep talking about wanting to be a wife but u never wanna communicate to me. It's like she expects me to read her mind thru her memes that r usually a form of like "subtweets" at me (substories?) And like damn maybe I am autistic lmao can u just tell me step by step what u need?

U might be onto something and I wish u had sent this post to me like 30 mins earlier lmao I was just like I was thankful to reconnect cus we just started talking again back in feb

My friend is super lovey dovey with him and embraces the relationship
And this girl is so passive & secretive about me but is damn good at breadcrumbing and love bombing. And its like obviously I should leave but her words r like poison that I keep swallowing

For added context, my friends new bf is a black scorpio who does photography (hell i know him so i know hes cool)
The girl I'm talking to is a Dominican who is involved in fashion just like her.

The difference in how love is being expressed is just like a bullet