Cam 🎈🌟
banner
3m0t10nalcr1s1s.bsky.social
Cam 🎈🌟
@3m0t10nalcr1s1s.bsky.social
Back up account 😔

They/Them | 18 | 🇨🇳🇨🇦

https://3m0t10nalcr1s1s.straw.page
I know right it's such a labor of love 🥹
October 21, 2024 at 7:30 AM
MEEEEEEW
October 20, 2024 at 9:01 PM
They were trying to tell us something
October 20, 2024 at 8:59 PM
This is how I found out you can't write threads like you can on twitter
a yellow smiley face with a red mouth and two hands behind it .
ALT: a yellow smiley face with a red mouth and two hands behind it .
media.tenor.com
October 19, 2024 at 4:05 PM
"Let's go see the stars out in the countryside, one of these days."

Tsukasa stops. Yes, Rui was still here. He was still right here beside him. There's no need to worry.

"...Okay. Maybe when it's warmer."

Rui smiles, bumping his head against Tsukasa's. "Mhmm."

(28/28)
October 19, 2024 at 4:04 PM
Rui's arms around him, Rui's breath and voice tickling his ear, Rui holding the telescope so steady for him, Rui coming to get him in the dead of night just because he thought that the sight was good enough for Tsukasa to see.

"Tsukasa-kun." Rui calls, and Tsukasa looks.

(27/28)
October 19, 2024 at 4:03 PM
Teenage boys, walking so late at night. Telescope in hand and both looking like they just rolled out of bed.

Tsukasa looks back up at the moon, at its light and at the craters he just saw up close.

Ah... Whenever he looks at it now, all he'll think about will be

(26/28)
October 19, 2024 at 4:03 PM
Of which you would only show to me.

I want to be special to you, the way you are to me.

And last,

Rui, I really... love you.

But Tsukasa doesn't say any of those things. Instead, he lets Rui walk beside him, hand in hand, as if there wasn't anything wrong with two

(25/28)
October 19, 2024 at 4:03 PM
Side, no matter what.

Rui squeezes his hand back, as if, he understood a bit, without ever being told.

Stay by my side forever. Is what Tsukasa wanted to say, but couldn't.

Your brilliance should be shared, but I want to be selfish and ask you to keep a small part,

(24/28)
October 19, 2024 at 4:02 PM
But, he can't help this dread inside. One day, perhaps, Rui will float away from him, to where even a star can't reach. That day... Tsukasa wishes it won't ever come.

Things happen, things out of their control, but if Tsukasa could help it, he'd choose to have Rui by his

(23/28)
October 19, 2024 at 4:02 PM
He's always known that people don't last forever. He's always know that tomorrow is never guaranteed. But why does Rui, loosing Rui, feel on par with loosing Saki, or Toya?

Rui's always been brilliant, and Tsukasa was just lucky enough to witness Rui every day.

(22/28)
October 19, 2024 at 4:01 PM
"I know. But sometimes, it just feels like..." Tsukasa grips Rui's sleeve tighter. "No... Nevermind. Let's just go back."

Rui seemed confused but he lets Tsukasa take his hand, following as he leads them both back to his house.

Tsukasa squeezes Rui's hand.

(21/28)
October 19, 2024 at 4:01 PM
"Is something the matter?"

Tsukasa blinks, looking at the sleeve he just grabbed. "...Sorry. You just felt... Really far away."

Rui smiles, tilting his head and turning to face Tsukasa in full. "I'm right here in front of you. I'm not going anywhere."

(20/28)
October 19, 2024 at 4:00 PM
Seem lonely and far away. Almost unreachable. Tsukasa lifts his hand, almost as if he was prepared for Rui to float up and away. Over to places Tsukasa can't even dream of reaching.

Rui jolts when Tsukasa grabs his coat sleeve, looking at him, confused.

(19/28)
October 19, 2024 at 4:00 PM
"If Tsukasa-kun is offering then I won't refuse." Rui finally untangles himself from Tsukasa, taking another look at the moon from the telescope one last time.

There's a sense of longing to Rui's air tonight. Tsukasa's been noticing it for a while. It always makes Rui

(18/28)
October 19, 2024 at 3:59 PM
Up at the sky and the moon.

"It's cold tonight." Tsukasa comments. "There's no school tomorrow. Stay over at mine."

"Hmm? Didn't you say you were going to let me freeze outside all alone?"

Tsukasa sputters. "Well-! I didn't-! Do you want to stay over or not?!"

(17/28)
October 19, 2024 at 3:59 PM
"Your shows have always been amazing. But right now, this is enough. Thank you for showing me."

Rui's hands have slid down to Tsukasa's waist now, and Tsukasa's own hands meet his there, lacing their fingers together.

For a while, the two of them stand there, looking

(16/28)
October 19, 2024 at 3:59 PM
"This is enough." He says, tucking his head under Rui's chin.

"Is it?" Rui laughs. "I feel like I could give you more of a show though."

"Well, that's something I definitely won't object to." Tsukasa looks up, smiling at the moon and invisible stars.

(15/28)
October 19, 2024 at 3:58 PM
"Or maybe I should buy a real telescope and we can watch the moon from there. What do you think?"

Rui hasn't moved his arms.

Tsukasa, who was too hung up on the 'I think of you whenever I see something beautiful' comment from Rui, just sinks deeper into his embrace.

(14/28)
October 19, 2024 at 3:58 PM
"You thought of me?" Tsukasa asked, breathless.

"Yes, I always think of Tsukasa-kun when I see something beautiful." Rui lowers the telescope. "Hmm, but it's still not good enough. Perhaps we should make a trip out of the city one of these days, look at the whole sky."

(13/28)
October 19, 2024 at 3:58 PM
"Wow.." Tsukasa studied the darker spots of the craters he could now make out. Without the telescope, he could still see the craters but he's never seen them like this before.

"Beautiful, isn't it?" Rui whispers right into his ear. "I saw it and knew I had to show you."

(12/28)
October 19, 2024 at 3:57 PM
A mystery, since Rui always seemed to run cold.

"The moon..." Tsukasa murmured before peering through the lens.

Ah, the moon was much more up close now. Tsukasa could almost see the craters clearly, and the light was so bright it was almost blinding.

(11/28)
October 19, 2024 at 3:57 PM
Real telescope, but when Tsukasa looks through, he can see that the lenses were at least legitimate. He could see very far away.

"Come here." Rui beckons Tsukasa, angling the telescope at the moon. His arms were warm around Tsukasa as he held the telescope steady.

(10/28)
October 19, 2024 at 3:56 PM
No, not a cylinder. A telescope.

"I got this recently as a gift from Nene's mother." Rui extends the telescope to it's full length. It clearly wasn't a fancy one, it was made out of wood and was a gift one would give to a preteen or child to placate them if they wanted a

(9/28)
October 19, 2024 at 3:56 PM