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100.gecs.gay
@100.gecs.gay
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a personal journal of struggle, disconnected from any name
i haven't felt the touch of another person in years
January 21, 2026 at 8:28 PM
i haven't felt the touch of another person in years
there'll be times where i go days without anyone hearing from me, solely because i don't have the time
January 21, 2026 at 8:26 PM
there'll be times where i go days without anyone hearing from me, solely because i don't have the time
i don't want to go, i don't want to go
it's been so long since i truly had time with friends
it's been so long since i truly had time with friends
January 21, 2026 at 8:24 PM
i don't want to go, i don't want to go
it's been so long since i truly had time with friends
it's been so long since i truly had time with friends
the entire world is blowing past while I'm stuck at work
January 21, 2026 at 8:23 PM
the entire world is blowing past while I'm stuck at work
and like that, my corporate mandated 15 minute break is over. sigh.
January 17, 2026 at 12:18 AM
and like that, my corporate mandated 15 minute break is over. sigh.
"they work around your schedule", "they're so nice", "it's a good starter job" -- that's not the problem at hand. these are all true, but it's not for me. it's not where I'm meant to be. it's not what i can handle.
January 17, 2026 at 12:17 AM
"they work around your schedule", "they're so nice", "it's a good starter job" -- that's not the problem at hand. these are all true, but it's not for me. it's not where I'm meant to be. it's not what i can handle.
my time and talent are being wasted and drained by this job
January 17, 2026 at 12:15 AM
my time and talent are being wasted and drained by this job
working for my degree, only to still be stuck at this dead end shithole -- this dead end shithole that makes me consider harming myself as a reasonable solution to the anguish i feel from working here, and from the customers
January 17, 2026 at 12:12 AM
working for my degree, only to still be stuck at this dead end shithole -- this dead end shithole that makes me consider harming myself as a reasonable solution to the anguish i feel from working here, and from the customers
but i don't know what to do.
January 17, 2026 at 12:10 AM
but i don't know what to do.
living this way isn't healthy
this job isn't healthy
being a loner isn't healthy
this job isn't healthy
being a loner isn't healthy
January 17, 2026 at 12:10 AM
living this way isn't healthy
this job isn't healthy
being a loner isn't healthy
this job isn't healthy
being a loner isn't healthy
either way, the fact I've spoken some of these words at all should be taken into account as a problem
January 17, 2026 at 12:09 AM
either way, the fact I've spoken some of these words at all should be taken into account as a problem
frankly the pinned is only partly right, this account is where i air out thoughts in general, usually depressing ones, but sometimes they can be funny
January 17, 2026 at 12:08 AM
frankly the pinned is only partly right, this account is where i air out thoughts in general, usually depressing ones, but sometimes they can be funny
a personal journal of struggle, disconnected from any name
January 17, 2026 at 12:05 AM
a personal journal of struggle, disconnected from any name
so many opportunities have been taken away from me unjustly.
January 17, 2026 at 12:04 AM
so many opportunities have been taken away from me unjustly.
i can keep screaming into my own void, and nobody will ever hear my pain, or my passion
January 17, 2026 at 12:03 AM
i can keep screaming into my own void, and nobody will ever hear my pain, or my passion
not again not again not again not again PLEASEEE no no no no no no no no no
January 16, 2026 at 3:41 PM
not again not again not again not again PLEASEEE no no no no no no no no no
my heart and soul are collapsing in on themselves
January 15, 2026 at 1:01 AM
my heart and soul are collapsing in on themselves
no one will understand if i even try to begin explaining
January 15, 2026 at 12:46 AM
no one will understand if i even try to begin explaining
so why am i always the last one there?
January 15, 2026 at 12:06 AM
so why am i always the last one there?
there are people my age or younger who already have everything i want
January 15, 2026 at 12:06 AM
there are people my age or younger who already have everything i want
wallowing in my own sorrows, screaming into my own void, clawing my way forward through each day hoping i don't end up hurting myself
January 15, 2026 at 12:04 AM
wallowing in my own sorrows, screaming into my own void, clawing my way forward through each day hoping i don't end up hurting myself